Memory of my gandpa
My family life sucks...
I just cant understand some of my family member.
Maybe... it sounds cruel but... I am glad my grandpa didnt see this, i am glad he didnt have to live this through... I hope that he is already in heaven. In a place where... maybe he can still watch over us, protect us, but doesnt see what our family becomes.
I miss him. He didnt deserve to die like this. He didnt deserve to work himself to death. And people ask why i am here in uni, why i came back. I own him. I do.
I am crying now, but today was just too much.
Only if i was a beter person and could stay by my granny's side for long.
Now she is alone... for years now. Noone to visit her... getting scolded if someone dares to visit her.
Why? She did nothing wrong. She did nothing!!!
I still cant understand how someone can behave like this.
Grandpa, if you see us, if you are with us, make her days better. Somehow please... please God, make her days better.
I cant bear to see her like this.
And i feel... the more days pass the more i cant forgive to that person...
When i see these clips i will post... i always think about him.
Its... really as a miracle for me... as if it was a little present to grandpa... but HAmasaki Ayumi's You clip... is totally about him. HE was working in an apple garden... the cause of his death... and as Ayu is walking on a road covered with apples to the light...
it is as if this whole song and clip would be about my grandpa's life.
Rest in peace.
I miss you and love you for forever.
http://v.youku.com/v_show/id_XMjQ3ODU1NDQ=.html
and this one...
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I just cant understand some of my family member.
Maybe... it sounds cruel but... I am glad my grandpa didnt see this, i am glad he didnt have to live this through... I hope that he is already in heaven. In a place where... maybe he can still watch over us, protect us, but doesnt see what our family becomes.
I miss him. He didnt deserve to die like this. He didnt deserve to work himself to death. And people ask why i am here in uni, why i came back. I own him. I do.
I am crying now, but today was just too much.
Only if i was a beter person and could stay by my granny's side for long.
Now she is alone... for years now. Noone to visit her... getting scolded if someone dares to visit her.
Why? She did nothing wrong. She did nothing!!!
I still cant understand how someone can behave like this.
Grandpa, if you see us, if you are with us, make her days better. Somehow please... please God, make her days better.
I cant bear to see her like this.
And i feel... the more days pass the more i cant forgive to that person...
When i see these clips i will post... i always think about him.
Its... really as a miracle for me... as if it was a little present to grandpa... but HAmasaki Ayumi's You clip... is totally about him. HE was working in an apple garden... the cause of his death... and as Ayu is walking on a road covered with apples to the light...
it is as if this whole song and clip would be about my grandpa's life.
Rest in peace.
I miss you and love you for forever.
http://v.youku.com/v_show/id_XMjQ3ODU1NDQ=.html
and this one...
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