what a fucking week...
for once. in a long fucking while.
i can say for all certainty. i am happy...
i know. i know. huge deal.
but i think i am happy. i have realized a few things. and well. i am all the better for it. and it brought on happiness.
i am happy in my life.
i am happy with my love.
i am happy with where i am.
i think i am strong.
oh god. i was uploading pictures of me and my girlfriend from the other day. and i noticed something in one of the pictures. aside from me looking wasted, my girlfriend is holding on to me and she has this look on her face.
which is the exact same look yelena gave her when she drew me and my girlfriend like a year ago. (small version can be seen in the icon i am using) i was so shocked when i realized it’s the same ‘oh my god my girlfriend is amazing.’ look. in the real picture and the drawing.
i bring that look out in people. so much that other people can feel it too, that they draw that look. i am so fucking awesome i bring out that look of pure happiness in others with me. do you know how awesome that makes me feel inside?
god i think i am falling for this girl harder then i originally thought. *laughs* i love her like so much, and the way she looks at me when we are together and the things she whispers to me in my ear, make me so so just amazing.
it feels so good to actually be happy for once too. and not depressed over this, or jealous over that, or crying over the other thing...
hikari. if you read this. god you should not read this. all i do is fuss over how awesome you are and how much i love you. *laughs* it might give you too big of an ego. i mean wow. just me. being near my lover, brings out that look of pure happiness. seriously. that boosts my ego to the max. *laugh*
yui tanaka, this is your life.
i think its time you grasp it.
and accept it.
i can say for all certainty. i am happy...
i know. i know. huge deal.
but i think i am happy. i have realized a few things. and well. i am all the better for it. and it brought on happiness.
i am happy in my life.
i am happy with my love.
i am happy with where i am.
i think i am strong.
oh god. i was uploading pictures of me and my girlfriend from the other day. and i noticed something in one of the pictures. aside from me looking wasted, my girlfriend is holding on to me and she has this look on her face.
which is the exact same look yelena gave her when she drew me and my girlfriend like a year ago. (small version can be seen in the icon i am using) i was so shocked when i realized it’s the same ‘oh my god my girlfriend is amazing.’ look. in the real picture and the drawing.
i bring that look out in people. so much that other people can feel it too, that they draw that look. i am so fucking awesome i bring out that look of pure happiness in others with me. do you know how awesome that makes me feel inside?
god i think i am falling for this girl harder then i originally thought. *laughs* i love her like so much, and the way she looks at me when we are together and the things she whispers to me in my ear, make me so so just amazing.
it feels so good to actually be happy for once too. and not depressed over this, or jealous over that, or crying over the other thing...
hikari. if you read this. god you should not read this. all i do is fuss over how awesome you are and how much i love you. *laughs* it might give you too big of an ego. i mean wow. just me. being near my lover, brings out that look of pure happiness. seriously. that boosts my ego to the max. *laugh*
yui tanaka, this is your life.
i think its time you grasp it.
and accept it.