how did things get so messed up?

[tamtam181]

ok so i admit lately i have been doing allot of shit that i probably shouldn't be doing
and that i have changed somewhat
but i never expected things to get this far this fast
its like being on a rolercoaster, it terrifying and exhilarating
and no matter how much you wana get off it
and control your own life
you just cant, because your not the one controlling it

i got kicked out of school
my basically second family is falling apart
i am gona dump my boyfriend
and my mom has completly given up on me

i don't know whether i wana
cry
scream
hit somebody
laugh

now i remember why i hate rolercoasters