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it is interesting how much we as human beings work to create routines. I stop today with my routine not quite right. It has changed in the last couple weeks, but I've gotten into a new routine. School, work, tv or computer then sleep. At the moment I'm working homework in there and friends too, but that is my general routine which is just about everyone's. I dont think I intended to have a new routine and yet things just fall into place. I guess I am a routine kind of guy, but even the most spontaneous have routines of spontinaity. I think that routines are security blankets because we are all so afraid. Make a routine forget the unknown and then bask in the safety of the future. But! life can have routines but is never a routine. When something breaks our routine or fundamentally changes our routine we are lost for those seconds, minutes, however long it takes to fix it, to do something, or to make a new routine. My new routine is working well, but its not perfect by any stretch. When I stop and think or stop and attempt to sleep as I am right now, I think, my mind wanders and well I am lonely in those brief minutes between doing anything or in the long hours of driving. On the whole I dont think everyone is lonely, actually most people most of the time arent. Today and the near future I imagine i get to be with the select few. When i stop feeling lonely, I'll know ...
it is interesting how much we as human beings work to create routines. I stop today with my routine not quite right. It has changed in the last couple weeks, but I've gotten into a new routine. School, work, tv or computer then sleep. At the moment I'm working homework in there and friends too, but that is my general routine which is just about everyone's. I dont think I intended to have a new routine and yet things just fall into place. I guess I am a routine kind of guy, but even the most spontaneous have routines of spontinaity. I think that routines are security blankets because we are all so afraid. Make a routine forget the unknown and then bask in the safety of the future. But! life can have routines but is never a routine. When something breaks our routine or fundamentally changes our routine we are lost for those seconds, minutes, however long it takes to fix it, to do something, or to make a new routine. My new routine is working well, but its not perfect by any stretch. When I stop and think or stop and attempt to sleep as I am right now, I think, my mind wanders and well I am lonely in those brief minutes between doing anything or in the long hours of driving. On the whole I dont think everyone is lonely, actually most people most of the time arent. Today and the near future I imagine i get to be with the select few. When i stop feeling lonely, I'll know ...