Read the first few months i posted about justin and mandy
CRAZY!!!! i can't believe how much things have changed since then. i'm still such a HUGE retard, but i'll be 23 on monday, and i'm still a HUGE dork! Justin is my husband now and Mandy is almost three! WTF!!! I can't believe i've had this journal for so long now, this is absolutly NUTS! I'm reading about when i was pregnant, and everything i was feeling and thinking at the time, and it instantly takes me back to that moment when i was writing it all. going through the first few days of knowing justin, how i was so stubborn to not write much about him, then a few months later telling EVERYTHING! lol.... yea i'm a dork... wow...
my priorities are the same, just in a different order!
MY family-Mandy and Justin
Responsibilities-WORK
SCHOOL-in a year when my job compensates it!
I have learned so much from those entries that i wrote back in early 2004, it's scary almost! I have gone through more trouble with depression,anxiety, and father issues, than i can count, and even still Ryan is good for nothing. wow nothing new there. My father very blatently had updated me on exactly WHY i'm disowned, last summer it was, joy. but you learn to move on. you shed a few tears every once in awhile, but nothing lifealtering anymore.
to think i went from working at publix, living in a garage apt, to having a husband, working for a GIANT company, and having my OWN place, in just a few years, i would have never guessed.
Pancake is still my BEST friend in the world, and is mandy's god father... i couldn't have asked for anyone better for me and my daughter and my family. He has been there from the first day i've been pregnant and has been there faithfully ever since! one of the FEW people that have stuck with me... Gabe is still a huge part of our life, and is a part of my entire family.
other than that, i do'nt have anyone else from my past.
Teddy, Cally's cousin, is my next best friend otehr than pancake and gabe. those are my trio of guy friends. there were at my wedding, and will always be apart of my family, no matter how weird or special they all are in their own way.
love you all.
i love my life.
i love everyone in it.
and i wouldn't change it.
oh yea another update, haven't seen heather in YEARS. love it.
i think this makes for year number two. next year it will eb three. i'm done. like i FINALLY said i was. god it only took me fuck knows how long~
ok thats my update.
i'll update more the more i read back, i'm sure i'll update about justin's family and his ex wife and kids next.
my priorities are the same, just in a different order!
MY family-Mandy and Justin
Responsibilities-WORK
SCHOOL-in a year when my job compensates it!
I have learned so much from those entries that i wrote back in early 2004, it's scary almost! I have gone through more trouble with depression,anxiety, and father issues, than i can count, and even still Ryan is good for nothing. wow nothing new there. My father very blatently had updated me on exactly WHY i'm disowned, last summer it was, joy. but you learn to move on. you shed a few tears every once in awhile, but nothing lifealtering anymore.
to think i went from working at publix, living in a garage apt, to having a husband, working for a GIANT company, and having my OWN place, in just a few years, i would have never guessed.
Pancake is still my BEST friend in the world, and is mandy's god father... i couldn't have asked for anyone better for me and my daughter and my family. He has been there from the first day i've been pregnant and has been there faithfully ever since! one of the FEW people that have stuck with me... Gabe is still a huge part of our life, and is a part of my entire family.
other than that, i do'nt have anyone else from my past.
Teddy, Cally's cousin, is my next best friend otehr than pancake and gabe. those are my trio of guy friends. there were at my wedding, and will always be apart of my family, no matter how weird or special they all are in their own way.
love you all.
i love my life.
i love everyone in it.
and i wouldn't change it.
oh yea another update, haven't seen heather in YEARS. love it.
i think this makes for year number two. next year it will eb three. i'm done. like i FINALLY said i was. god it only took me fuck knows how long~
ok thats my update.
i'll update more the more i read back, i'm sure i'll update about justin's family and his ex wife and kids next.