Finally...true colors
Well, I don't know if he's been doing it on purpose...but Kyle has finally made me hate him. He has been cruel to me for the last time. I didn't even want to talk to him, and he IM'd me tonight. Then he told me that he's been talking to some guy for 3 weeks now. That's just lovely, seeing as how we've only been broken up for a little over a week now. Then he made up some bullshit story about how he's gone back up north and started working at some dairy. He's a fucking pathological liar. I know he's lying about talking to the other guy anyway, but it still infuriates me because it was said with the pure intention of hurting me.
So let me tell you why I'm REALLY so angry... I'm angry because I was fucking stupid enough to fall for his bullshit. I'm angry because I was so desperate enough to put up with his cruelness. I'm angry because I'm so shallow that I was willing to be with him simply because he was attractive...and ignored the fact that he has a fucking criminal record, and his own mother won't even speak to him. He has no friends and can't keep a relationship longer than a fucking month. He has a wonderful job at fucking Wal-mart and he doesn't have a car or anything to his name. He is the very fucking definition of a loser, and I was stupid enough to date him. And I'm angry that I convinced myself that I was noble for doing it. I thought that it was noble to love someone despite all their shortcomings. But this was ridiculous.
But it's all over now. I guess, in retrospect, I should thank him. I should thank him because he's managed to make it easier on me. Why? Because instead of hurting for him, I can finally say I HATE HIM!
So let me tell you why I'm REALLY so angry... I'm angry because I was fucking stupid enough to fall for his bullshit. I'm angry because I was so desperate enough to put up with his cruelness. I'm angry because I'm so shallow that I was willing to be with him simply because he was attractive...and ignored the fact that he has a fucking criminal record, and his own mother won't even speak to him. He has no friends and can't keep a relationship longer than a fucking month. He has a wonderful job at fucking Wal-mart and he doesn't have a car or anything to his name. He is the very fucking definition of a loser, and I was stupid enough to date him. And I'm angry that I convinced myself that I was noble for doing it. I thought that it was noble to love someone despite all their shortcomings. But this was ridiculous.
But it's all over now. I guess, in retrospect, I should thank him. I should thank him because he's managed to make it easier on me. Why? Because instead of hurting for him, I can finally say I HATE HIM!