Numb
"Goddamn it! Why don't you at least act like you like it!"
Some words
can never be forgotten.
Some moments
define who we are and how we feel
or naught.
It is confusing
to need
and feel guilty for it
to pull and push
and feel guilty for it
to be a puppet
and feel nothing
to pretend while inside
there are awakenings.
It is confusing
to be so alive
and want to kill
before death
to not understand
breath
in dead places
to crave
and be too ashamed
too afraid.
I give permission.
I want to feel.