Sadness
As many of you already know, a dear friend of ours was lost yesterday afternoon while on his way to work. To work at a job that he hated but he went anyway. A man who had dreams of attending college again and gaining a degree that would enable him to help people everyday of his life.
Little did he realize that he was already helping people every day. He was helping us, his friends everyday by brightening our lives and making us feel loved when no one else in our lives seemed to.
He was honest, caring, funny, light hearted, and incredibly amazing. He was a best friend, a gaurdian, a rock, a shoulder to lean on, and a brother all in one to so many people.
I was awakened by Gretchen at 7:34 this morning with the news that she had just received from her mother. My first reaction was complete denial, it wasn't him, it was someone else, he's not really gone he's just hurt really bad, and this is a dream. After that wore off and I realized that she was indeed completely serious it was nothing but tears until I left on a long drive to Indy. All day I felt like this huge part of my heart was missing, I still feel that way, because I think he took a piece of everyone's heart with him when he left. I can still feel him right beside me, putting his hand on my back or my arm, telling me that it'll be okay and that I'm strong enough to get through this, that we all are. We all have a new gaurdian angel.
He always called himself Batman. A man who prided himself on contingency plans, being everyone's gaurdian, and being the first one there to help a friend in need. Now, he really is Batman and can watch over all of us from the highest perch that there is. God gained an amazing angel for Heaven when he took Trav from us. That makes me angry, but I know Trav would not want me to be angry so I'm trying not to be.
Trav would be proud of us. He would want all of us to reunite because of this. He would want all of us to come together to celebrate his life and put all of our crap behind us. He would want us to all be together. And that is exactly what has happened so far.
To the rest of us, I love you, and it does not matter how long we go without talking, you are all in my heart.
I will miss you forever, you will always be my best friend, and I will always have a hole in my heart from the place that you touched in me for so many years. I love you Trav.
Little did he realize that he was already helping people every day. He was helping us, his friends everyday by brightening our lives and making us feel loved when no one else in our lives seemed to.
He was honest, caring, funny, light hearted, and incredibly amazing. He was a best friend, a gaurdian, a rock, a shoulder to lean on, and a brother all in one to so many people.
I was awakened by Gretchen at 7:34 this morning with the news that she had just received from her mother. My first reaction was complete denial, it wasn't him, it was someone else, he's not really gone he's just hurt really bad, and this is a dream. After that wore off and I realized that she was indeed completely serious it was nothing but tears until I left on a long drive to Indy. All day I felt like this huge part of my heart was missing, I still feel that way, because I think he took a piece of everyone's heart with him when he left. I can still feel him right beside me, putting his hand on my back or my arm, telling me that it'll be okay and that I'm strong enough to get through this, that we all are. We all have a new gaurdian angel.
He always called himself Batman. A man who prided himself on contingency plans, being everyone's gaurdian, and being the first one there to help a friend in need. Now, he really is Batman and can watch over all of us from the highest perch that there is. God gained an amazing angel for Heaven when he took Trav from us. That makes me angry, but I know Trav would not want me to be angry so I'm trying not to be.
Trav would be proud of us. He would want all of us to reunite because of this. He would want all of us to come together to celebrate his life and put all of our crap behind us. He would want us to all be together. And that is exactly what has happened so far.
To the rest of us, I love you, and it does not matter how long we go without talking, you are all in my heart.
I will miss you forever, you will always be my best friend, and I will always have a hole in my heart from the place that you touched in me for so many years. I love you Trav.