I don't feel right.
Lately i haven't been feeling right, only at night. I haven't been sleeping. I think its because i feel so lonely at night. I have nobody to talk to on my floor that actually knows me, and i don't feel comfortable sleeping by myself. Like at home its fine sleeping by myself, because my parents are just in the room across from me, but i don't have that here. I don't have my b/f in the bed with me. I don't even have any friends on this floor to even go to. I have my fish, which the water helps me go to sleep, but i don't know what it is. Its like i don't feel secure in my own room. I just feel so alone. I have to get over this. I love living in a room by myself. Absolutly love it. But i think thats whats been bugging me for the past 3 weeks. The room just didn't feel like mine. Today I put some more things on the walls, put up some christmas lights, and put a cute little picture frame of me and andrew in a few pictures on the walls. It feels a little bit better. The freshman in my hall r finally starting to talk to me, so thats alright, they will never become as good of friends as the ones i have now. Sometimes i just let my mind wonder too much, and thats what worries me. I think of all the things that i have to do, and it scares me. I really need to get over this. and quickly. Goodnite. I love you.