The Morning After.
Yay for Tamra! she got some sex!!! We fucked in our Dehra Dun T-shirts as the party swrilled on around us. anyway, last night was....intresting. fun as hell, but intresting. Katie was way gone and had a bit too much penis in her mouth-haha thanks to her, half the party saw tokens penis. Pixie is scared of it, but thats ok. sorry again to Art and Kevin for looking for me when they thought i was lost and i was just fucking geoff in the bathroom, thanks for loving me guys:) there i go belive in love again... ok, i cant keep my train of thought going because im just so gosh darn exhusted, plus im talking to a jeremy. ok, jeremy is gone now. but my brain is still in a fog. i dont know how i feel right now...kinda nervous because my mom isnt home and i dont have a ride to work...i would hate to call katie to have her drive me work, but i might have too. does he love you? does he love you? will he hold your tiny face in his hands? Brad are you fucking pissed at me? i need to draw more...i need to draw a picture of Token and Neil, they both said they wanted me too...anybody else want me to draw them? i need to finish the picture of Mike too, but only because he looks like santa. ok, if i go to take a nap now, i could wake up at 3.30 after 2 hours of sleep, take a shower, and see if katie could pick me up..nm im just gunna call her now *phone with katie* ok that was just a voicemail... i have personalitly right? i want my fucking drugs dude. im not right without them, i wish i didnt have to talk to anybody until i was back on them and funtional again. that way, id be normal and be excited about my next date with Andrew (which i am, dont get me wrong) but its kinda bittersweet. i just wish i was cooler. i wish i wasnt so bitter and jealous and was happy being me again. because there was a time where i was, but its fadding away now, and id do anything to get that feeling back again. good news, my brother is giving me a ride to work. i suppose i should go to sleep now...but i have a feeling that i wont be able to sleep. i think ill be thinking about..boys. well, a boy. no, mabye a couple. andrew, im so sorry that you met me in such a crappy part of my life. im really more fun than this, really i am. haha. just wait till i get my pills, then you can meet the real happy me that i know i can be. that goes for all of you. Neil, im really not this clingly and crazy phsyco bitch. granted, that wont help me when it comes to you im sure, but im just letting you know... who else do i have a note for... . .. ... .. . i guess thats it... night