6 months ago...
was the last time I updated. But I'm back now. I am going to be writing more. It's been a while, but I miss this thing. I have so many memories here... my entries go back many years. It's amazing really. So, hello to all the ones who have missed me :P Like.. 2 of you. :P
I'm 20 now. Still working at good ol White Spot. Not going to school... don't want to either. Over christmas I worked at, yup, Toys R Us :P They finally kept me on this year after seasonal, but I quit a few weeks ago because they were only giving me 1 shift. Oh well, guess I need a better job. Did I mention how I bought a car? I now own a 2000 volkswagen GTI. Its so nice. Black leather seats, heated seats, power everything, sun roof, tinted windows... Ill be making payment till November 2009, unless I decide to sell before then. But I love it. :)
Last night was really horrible. I came home from work, chilled for a bit, then was driving to my friends house at around 11:30...... and I hit a cat. :| It just ran out of nowhere. There was nothing I could do! It ran out when my car was like, beside it. Stupid thing :( I hit it and slammed on my breaks, screamed. Look in the rearview mirror and I could see it flailing around on the road. A few seconds later it stopped. I just got out of my car in the middle of street, looked back, and screamed "NOOO!!" and cried. It was so horrible!! I just bawled and bawled. I felt so fucking horrible! I still do. I mean, this could be somebodys family pet. It was black and white and it was pretty big. :( GOD! Why did I have to hit it? I went to a few peoples homes and knocked, but most were sleeping. My mom and brother came outside because it was only a few houses down the road from where I live. My brother moved it to the side of the road....... I just couldn't stop crying. Its one of the most horrible things Ive ever done, but I couldnt help it!! There was no time to stop! :( It took a while for me to calm down.. I don't even want to drive on that street anymore. I'm such an animal lover that it's just unbearable pain. I look at my cats and cry almost. I hope this doesnt affect me for long. I just hate death.
But I have to get ready for work. Need to make the money for the bills. Growing up sucks.
I'm 20 now. Still working at good ol White Spot. Not going to school... don't want to either. Over christmas I worked at, yup, Toys R Us :P They finally kept me on this year after seasonal, but I quit a few weeks ago because they were only giving me 1 shift. Oh well, guess I need a better job. Did I mention how I bought a car? I now own a 2000 volkswagen GTI. Its so nice. Black leather seats, heated seats, power everything, sun roof, tinted windows... Ill be making payment till November 2009, unless I decide to sell before then. But I love it. :)
Last night was really horrible. I came home from work, chilled for a bit, then was driving to my friends house at around 11:30...... and I hit a cat. :| It just ran out of nowhere. There was nothing I could do! It ran out when my car was like, beside it. Stupid thing :( I hit it and slammed on my breaks, screamed. Look in the rearview mirror and I could see it flailing around on the road. A few seconds later it stopped. I just got out of my car in the middle of street, looked back, and screamed "NOOO!!" and cried. It was so horrible!! I just bawled and bawled. I felt so fucking horrible! I still do. I mean, this could be somebodys family pet. It was black and white and it was pretty big. :( GOD! Why did I have to hit it? I went to a few peoples homes and knocked, but most were sleeping. My mom and brother came outside because it was only a few houses down the road from where I live. My brother moved it to the side of the road....... I just couldn't stop crying. Its one of the most horrible things Ive ever done, but I couldnt help it!! There was no time to stop! :( It took a while for me to calm down.. I don't even want to drive on that street anymore. I'm such an animal lover that it's just unbearable pain. I look at my cats and cry almost. I hope this doesnt affect me for long. I just hate death.
But I have to get ready for work. Need to make the money for the bills. Growing up sucks.