For the record...
Before anyone else says anything, I'm doing this for myself. Yes, Chelsea had her say, and I took her opinion into consideration. And of course Molly's health is a factor. In the end, however, the choice was mine. I need to stop thinking that the cigarettes will solve my problems for me. I need to stop retreating to a smoky haze whenever things get too stressful to deal with. They dull my emotions, and they dull my senses. Already my sense of smell is better than it has ever been in my life. It started out as an addiction, and became a crutch. Not to mention all the money I blow on them that I could be spending on food for my family.
Yes, it's left me cranky and a pain to deal with. Yes, I picked a really horrible time to do this. The physical and emotional stress I'm dealing with is not helpful to a person in my position. I realize all this, but you know what? I don't care. Again, I made the choice for me, to help me become a better, stronger person. If I can beat this, I can beat anything.
I'm doing well, so far. Physically, I feel like a wreck. It's lessening, though. Emotionally, I'm somewhat close to a two-year old, prone to tantrums and inappropriate feelings. I'm trying to keep that to myself.
Patience is the key, here. One day at a time, and this will prove to be more than just an experiment.
Yes, it's left me cranky and a pain to deal with. Yes, I picked a really horrible time to do this. The physical and emotional stress I'm dealing with is not helpful to a person in my position. I realize all this, but you know what? I don't care. Again, I made the choice for me, to help me become a better, stronger person. If I can beat this, I can beat anything.
I'm doing well, so far. Physically, I feel like a wreck. It's lessening, though. Emotionally, I'm somewhat close to a two-year old, prone to tantrums and inappropriate feelings. I'm trying to keep that to myself.
Patience is the key, here. One day at a time, and this will prove to be more than just an experiment.