Before I forget the write this down.
I woke up this morning to this:
dainbramage500 (1:22:27 AM): alright i'm going to tell you this now and then go to bed because i've i wanted to for several days but never could. that kiss we had was probably the best kiss i've ever experienced. it was like we were in our own universe and nothing else mattered. there was no drama and it just seemed so right. i can't explain it. it was like we flew up to the clouds for just those 2 minutes or so and i never wanted to leave. i don't know what to do now. i don't know what i can do but see you a few times more before i leave. saturday is a big northwestern party - dillo day. we should go. anyway. just had to get that off my chest. hope you have a good day. talk to you soon.
And so I responded...much later in the day because I was trying to avoid it:
uwish223 (3:38:31 PM): Wow. That was really sweet of you to say, but I don't think the kiss meant the same for me as it did for you. I'm glad we're in eachother's lives again, because I really value your friendship, but this probably worked out for the best because you're leaving soon.
To which he said...much later:
dainbramage500 (4:17:17 PM): i know and i agree
dainbramage500 (4:17:30 PM): just thought i'd let you know that you make me smile
And I'm angry. Because he expects me to wait for him.
And to drop everything for him.
But I really am over it.
And is it bad that I can't help thinking:
i win!
dainbramage500 (1:22:27 AM): alright i'm going to tell you this now and then go to bed because i've i wanted to for several days but never could. that kiss we had was probably the best kiss i've ever experienced. it was like we were in our own universe and nothing else mattered. there was no drama and it just seemed so right. i can't explain it. it was like we flew up to the clouds for just those 2 minutes or so and i never wanted to leave. i don't know what to do now. i don't know what i can do but see you a few times more before i leave. saturday is a big northwestern party - dillo day. we should go. anyway. just had to get that off my chest. hope you have a good day. talk to you soon.
And so I responded...much later in the day because I was trying to avoid it:
uwish223 (3:38:31 PM): Wow. That was really sweet of you to say, but I don't think the kiss meant the same for me as it did for you. I'm glad we're in eachother's lives again, because I really value your friendship, but this probably worked out for the best because you're leaving soon.
To which he said...much later:
dainbramage500 (4:17:17 PM): i know and i agree
dainbramage500 (4:17:30 PM): just thought i'd let you know that you make me smile
And I'm angry. Because he expects me to wait for him.
And to drop everything for him.
But I really am over it.
And is it bad that I can't help thinking:
i win!