You can't just ask someone if they're gay
can you?
no. Not when it's ricky.
okay this may seem a bit odd. and I know that rumors suck.
But the other night when I was at stephen's, we somehow got on the subject of ricky.
And mitch goes (yeah I know it was mitch which means I can't really believe it) "Oh yeah, I heard he came out!"
and I said, "...out of what, Mitch?" knowing full well what he was implying, but not believing my ears.
And then Max, from across the patio adds, "who? Ricky? Yeah, he's gay!"
So. No one has been able to pinpoint the exact moment they heard it, or the person from whom they heard, and I know it's only a rumor, but what if?
And now I have this cloud of curiousity looming behind me, and I can't stop wondering, is he?
And I can't just blurt it out to him. Because if he is gay, he obviously hasn't told me for a reason.
And if he's not gay, I'm completley being an asshole for even remotely believing these dumb boys in the first place.
So how do you ask someone if they're gay.
And now, a related dream:
I was on some sort of show choir trip. (Go figure, I know everything about the choir drama without actually going to high school that it's scary.) And for some reason the rumor that ricky is gay started to spread. Only, in my dream, I was able to get the facts from everyone and pinpoint the person who started the rumor. And it was Valorie, probably because I had overheard things here and there about her the previous evening, and she heard it from her boyfriend Mischa, who started the rumor. (And this is where I believe that Val represents my future roommate elyse because elyse's ex boyfriend is Mischa.) And so I went up to Val(elyse) and started to tell her off. To which, Val(elyse) started to defend herself and tell me off. At this, Max stands up, about to take over the fight for me and stand up for me (I think because that's what I would have wanted him to do. Or maybe because that's what I want him to do for me now) but I yelled at him. I told him to sit down and stay out of my business. I needed to take care of myself for once. (I think because I know that's what I know I need to do. But it's easier for me to stand up for myself in my dreams) Then, I proceeded to tell Val(elyse) off.
And it felt good.
And I've just wanted to tell someone that.
So honestly, I'm asking for help. Have any of you heard this rumor? is it a rumor? Am I being ridiculous?
...is it okay to ask?
Will someone to do it for me?
blah.
no. Not when it's ricky.
okay this may seem a bit odd. and I know that rumors suck.
But the other night when I was at stephen's, we somehow got on the subject of ricky.
And mitch goes (yeah I know it was mitch which means I can't really believe it) "Oh yeah, I heard he came out!"
and I said, "...out of what, Mitch?" knowing full well what he was implying, but not believing my ears.
And then Max, from across the patio adds, "who? Ricky? Yeah, he's gay!"
So. No one has been able to pinpoint the exact moment they heard it, or the person from whom they heard, and I know it's only a rumor, but what if?
And now I have this cloud of curiousity looming behind me, and I can't stop wondering, is he?
And I can't just blurt it out to him. Because if he is gay, he obviously hasn't told me for a reason.
And if he's not gay, I'm completley being an asshole for even remotely believing these dumb boys in the first place.
So how do you ask someone if they're gay.
And now, a related dream:
I was on some sort of show choir trip. (Go figure, I know everything about the choir drama without actually going to high school that it's scary.) And for some reason the rumor that ricky is gay started to spread. Only, in my dream, I was able to get the facts from everyone and pinpoint the person who started the rumor. And it was Valorie, probably because I had overheard things here and there about her the previous evening, and she heard it from her boyfriend Mischa, who started the rumor. (And this is where I believe that Val represents my future roommate elyse because elyse's ex boyfriend is Mischa.) And so I went up to Val(elyse) and started to tell her off. To which, Val(elyse) started to defend herself and tell me off. At this, Max stands up, about to take over the fight for me and stand up for me (I think because that's what I would have wanted him to do. Or maybe because that's what I want him to do for me now) but I yelled at him. I told him to sit down and stay out of my business. I needed to take care of myself for once. (I think because I know that's what I know I need to do. But it's easier for me to stand up for myself in my dreams) Then, I proceeded to tell Val(elyse) off.
And it felt good.
And I've just wanted to tell someone that.
So honestly, I'm asking for help. Have any of you heard this rumor? is it a rumor? Am I being ridiculous?
...is it okay to ask?
Will someone to do it for me?
blah.