i guess i'm thankful that i'm still alive
so, i'm actually glad the crazy christmas season is over. i mean, i don't really get to relax anyway but i don't have to worry about as much i guess . . . ok, that's a lie.
i never thought i could become this unfortunate. and i'm not trying to sound greedy but what did i do to deserve this?
no one has looked at my car to estimate how much the damage will cost but my grandpa says it will cost $2,000 just to replace the airbags alone. my mom said he tends to exagerate but still i don't even have $300 in the bank as i speak. there's no way i have enough money to get that car fixed. my mom says i should just get a new car. and that'd be nice but i have no clue how i'd pay it off.
i'm only taking 3 classes this semester but i go to school 4 days out of the week and during those four days i have to figure out how to fit in my DI meetings. and if i work the other 3 days when will i get time to do my homework and rest so i don't over do it? but if i don't work those three days then how will i get the money to pay off yet another car, my phone bill, and other various items like food and gas?
then i have to worry about financial aid that hasn't gone through the system yet. because i definitely do not have money to pay for school.
and on top of all that my dad's been in and out of the hospital this past week because something's wrong with his heart.
everything was going so good.
i'm so lucky to have mark. i forget all of this (well most of it anyway) when i'm with him. he keeps me sane. he's my silver lining.
i used to be able to look at the positive side of life no matter how bad things got. but it's really hard to when you spent almost your entire years earnings to pay off a used car and college debts. and now that car is not drivable anymore. i spent just about $2,000 on that car this year alone and that doesn't include insurance plus almost $800 on Madonna.
and people, stop asking me about my car. i really don't like talking about it.
i'm sick of life.
i never thought i could become this unfortunate. and i'm not trying to sound greedy but what did i do to deserve this?
no one has looked at my car to estimate how much the damage will cost but my grandpa says it will cost $2,000 just to replace the airbags alone. my mom said he tends to exagerate but still i don't even have $300 in the bank as i speak. there's no way i have enough money to get that car fixed. my mom says i should just get a new car. and that'd be nice but i have no clue how i'd pay it off.
i'm only taking 3 classes this semester but i go to school 4 days out of the week and during those four days i have to figure out how to fit in my DI meetings. and if i work the other 3 days when will i get time to do my homework and rest so i don't over do it? but if i don't work those three days then how will i get the money to pay off yet another car, my phone bill, and other various items like food and gas?
then i have to worry about financial aid that hasn't gone through the system yet. because i definitely do not have money to pay for school.
and on top of all that my dad's been in and out of the hospital this past week because something's wrong with his heart.
everything was going so good.
i'm so lucky to have mark. i forget all of this (well most of it anyway) when i'm with him. he keeps me sane. he's my silver lining.
i used to be able to look at the positive side of life no matter how bad things got. but it's really hard to when you spent almost your entire years earnings to pay off a used car and college debts. and now that car is not drivable anymore. i spent just about $2,000 on that car this year alone and that doesn't include insurance plus almost $800 on Madonna.
and people, stop asking me about my car. i really don't like talking about it.
i'm sick of life.