I don't need this fuckin' world, this world brings me down.
I had my first job interview today... I didn't get the job, haha. Well, I wasn't really expecting to, and I didn't really want the job... but it occurs to me that if I can't get a job soon all my plans are gonna fall apart. I have to get that apartment with Pirate by August, which means I need a job BEFORE July... mrr. Of course, if getting a job means compromising myself or my principles, well, fuck that, I have SOME integrity.
If my inability to get a job wasn't bad enough, my friends are also a source of stress these days. "M" is probably going to leave everyone behind and grow up to become a White Rock person, "G" is so... I don't know, plain and quiet these days, it's unnerving and unlike how I remember her. "P" is either going to be the biggest disappointment of my life or the best friend I ever made, I can't tell yet. "A" is someone whose loyalty I would never have doubted before, but now I do. My relatively small group of favorite people are slowly becoming strangers to me. It's frustrating to say the least.
Plus my cat Lynxy may be dying, my family is very nervous about it... although she seems alright to me. I dunno, I mean, I'm not depressed or anything but I hate feeling so awfully alone in the world. No school or job to distract me, no friends or family to support me. My family relations are strained at best, I need to get out of this house. Not to mention how completely inept my mother can be... I love her but the woman can be so stupid. I hope I don't end up like her.
Gurgle. Thinking about this shit makes me sick. So I'm gonna stop now.
EDIT:
Speaking of DEPRESSING...
Do any of those scene-ass losers look like they could start a riot to YOU? FUCK. Warped Tour line-up this year is EVEN worse than last year. At least last year had NoFX & the Casualties. More like, "Lame Ass Emo Band Tour."
The only DECENT, and I say decent because none of them are really super awesome (except maybe Bad Religion), bands coming are Bad Religion, Pennywise, Big D and the Kids Table, The Unseen, and The Briefs. Le sigh.
(and Flogging Molly is on the tour but they're not coming to Vancouver. I'm so not going)
If my inability to get a job wasn't bad enough, my friends are also a source of stress these days. "M" is probably going to leave everyone behind and grow up to become a White Rock person, "G" is so... I don't know, plain and quiet these days, it's unnerving and unlike how I remember her. "P" is either going to be the biggest disappointment of my life or the best friend I ever made, I can't tell yet. "A" is someone whose loyalty I would never have doubted before, but now I do. My relatively small group of favorite people are slowly becoming strangers to me. It's frustrating to say the least.
Plus my cat Lynxy may be dying, my family is very nervous about it... although she seems alright to me. I dunno, I mean, I'm not depressed or anything but I hate feeling so awfully alone in the world. No school or job to distract me, no friends or family to support me. My family relations are strained at best, I need to get out of this house. Not to mention how completely inept my mother can be... I love her but the woman can be so stupid. I hope I don't end up like her.
Gurgle. Thinking about this shit makes me sick. So I'm gonna stop now.
EDIT:
Speaking of DEPRESSING...
Do any of those scene-ass losers look like they could start a riot to YOU? FUCK. Warped Tour line-up this year is EVEN worse than last year. At least last year had NoFX & the Casualties. More like, "Lame Ass Emo Band Tour."
The only DECENT, and I say decent because none of them are really super awesome (except maybe Bad Religion), bands coming are Bad Religion, Pennywise, Big D and the Kids Table, The Unseen, and The Briefs. Le sigh.
(and Flogging Molly is on the tour but they're not coming to Vancouver. I'm so not going)