In hopes he can escape the science man, out-numbered 500 to... Todd1.
If the wolf you feed the most wins the race, I guess I'll definitely end up being an artist or a writer. Since that's all I do these days. All my courses are art and writing and in my spare time (when I'm not drinking and getting high and going to concerts and getting tattoos and putting metal in my face and having promiscuous sex for low prices) all I do is draw and write. But that's not what I want to do! So quick, stop and walk backwards. If I take acting next term and take some voice training classes and start looking around for a band that needs someone... who knows, right? Those're steps in the direction of being a performer of some sort, anyways. If you want something, work for it. Right.
I love the Aquabats. MC Bat Commander is my new hero, fuck Jimmy (oh god don't strike me down.) He's got a drawn on moustache AND he's a SUPERHERO. My two aspirations: 1) Rockstar 2) Superhero. He's BOTH! WITH A MOUSTACHE. And crazy loveable music. I think everybody should download their music posthaste. Lovers of Loving Love indeed!
I derailed from what I wanted to say, by the way. Maybe I haven't lost my ability to write after all. I wrote this personal essay for English and got 30/30 on it, which surprised me like crazy. But last time I wrote a personal essay, I got 24/25, so maybe it's not just a fluke. Of course, I have another personal essay due tomorrow in my creative writing class and I haven't even started, so I'm predicting a 0/0 on that. And it's not like grades on a piece of writing mean much anyways. Maybe I have impeccable grammar or something like that but it doesn't mean I'm a good writer. The teachers at Total Ed flatter me like crazy. Jodee, you're so good at this! That's so nice. Wow, you really did a good job. I think it's to do with how everyone at this school is a retard junkie slut. Self esteem boosters abound. Anyways, I'm pretty proud of what he said about my essay and my mark. He was all like, "I'd be proud to have written this myself," and stuff in his comment. Though he did point out a couple flaws of course.
I suppose it's a bit silly from an outsider's point of view but I've made a vow never to cry again. Obviously, I know that one day I will end up crying so it's not really "never." But I cry far too easily and it's a bad, babyish habit. It weakens whatever point I'm presenting when a serious argument's going on and people think I'm doing it on purpose to get sympathy. Or I do get sympathy when I don't really want it. It's just really hard for me not to cry. I've always cried. Conscious effort will be required to make it stop.
Another bad habit would be becoming a dumb bitch when I'm drunk, but it's so much fun I don't know that I could ever give it up. Guz E'fi meez maepx jov jav oog tmop. Aehpesx wma I eja tmiot og ow wihhha mo Yawjugah! Thank GOD.
Sometimes the discrepancy between who I am and who I'd like to be startles me, and not because it's so humongous. The reason is that a lot of the things I want are easily attainable, but for one reason or another I haven't bothered. Really, time to shape up. I'm almost a grown-up. Ew. I hope I don't become normal. That's my biggest fear. Being a normal person. Or being a lesbian. (No offense to lesbians or anything. I know plenty of 'em and I love 'em and all. I just can't imagine being stuck with breasts and vaginas for the rest of my life, seeing as how I find them repulsive and all.)
Concert updates are as follows!
I missed the Casualties, saw LSD and it rocked, am going to the Rancid/Aquabats show, might be going to the KMFDM/Combichrist show and if so I might also see Leftover Crack, am seeing the Furios on the 28th of October (fkyeah) and perhaps the Deadcats/Furios/Rio Bent show on the 7th as well. So yeah, shows galore. Hopefully. Actually, I ought to go find out if that Deadcats show is all-ages.
I love the Aquabats. MC Bat Commander is my new hero, fuck Jimmy (oh god don't strike me down.) He's got a drawn on moustache AND he's a SUPERHERO. My two aspirations: 1) Rockstar 2) Superhero. He's BOTH! WITH A MOUSTACHE. And crazy loveable music. I think everybody should download their music posthaste. Lovers of Loving Love indeed!
I derailed from what I wanted to say, by the way. Maybe I haven't lost my ability to write after all. I wrote this personal essay for English and got 30/30 on it, which surprised me like crazy. But last time I wrote a personal essay, I got 24/25, so maybe it's not just a fluke. Of course, I have another personal essay due tomorrow in my creative writing class and I haven't even started, so I'm predicting a 0/0 on that. And it's not like grades on a piece of writing mean much anyways. Maybe I have impeccable grammar or something like that but it doesn't mean I'm a good writer. The teachers at Total Ed flatter me like crazy. Jodee, you're so good at this! That's so nice. Wow, you really did a good job. I think it's to do with how everyone at this school is a retard junkie slut. Self esteem boosters abound. Anyways, I'm pretty proud of what he said about my essay and my mark. He was all like, "I'd be proud to have written this myself," and stuff in his comment. Though he did point out a couple flaws of course.
I suppose it's a bit silly from an outsider's point of view but I've made a vow never to cry again. Obviously, I know that one day I will end up crying so it's not really "never." But I cry far too easily and it's a bad, babyish habit. It weakens whatever point I'm presenting when a serious argument's going on and people think I'm doing it on purpose to get sympathy. Or I do get sympathy when I don't really want it. It's just really hard for me not to cry. I've always cried. Conscious effort will be required to make it stop.
Another bad habit would be becoming a dumb bitch when I'm drunk, but it's so much fun I don't know that I could ever give it up. Guz E'fi meez maepx jov jav oog tmop. Aehpesx wma I eja tmiot og ow wihhha mo Yawjugah! Thank GOD.
Sometimes the discrepancy between who I am and who I'd like to be startles me, and not because it's so humongous. The reason is that a lot of the things I want are easily attainable, but for one reason or another I haven't bothered. Really, time to shape up. I'm almost a grown-up. Ew. I hope I don't become normal. That's my biggest fear. Being a normal person. Or being a lesbian. (No offense to lesbians or anything. I know plenty of 'em and I love 'em and all. I just can't imagine being stuck with breasts and vaginas for the rest of my life, seeing as how I find them repulsive and all.)
Concert updates are as follows!
I missed the Casualties, saw LSD and it rocked, am going to the Rancid/Aquabats show, might be going to the KMFDM/Combichrist show and if so I might also see Leftover Crack, am seeing the Furios on the 28th of October (fkyeah) and perhaps the Deadcats/Furios/Rio Bent show on the 7th as well. So yeah, shows galore. Hopefully. Actually, I ought to go find out if that Deadcats show is all-ages.