Happy Birthday Lee
I love how it is 10pm and I am writing in my LJ before I even begin any homework I have due tomorrow.. which is a shitload?! Tonight was my mom's birthday. Fun night.. warm night. We had lots of food, cake and singing, some family friends over, it was nice. Her birthday is on pearl harbor day! We were all born on holidays...me on fathers day, abe on mothers day, and sarah on christmas. Weird. I just ate so much cake my stomach is out to china. The snow does that to you...you don't have much to do outside, so you sit inside and eat all day long. From pizza to hot chocolate, food is just so satisfying when it's freezing and snowy outside that you eat like a pig and don't realize it until you change at night. Plus, you aren't wearing skimpy little tank tops and shorts, so its not like you have anything to really fit into.. so I guess gaining a few extra pounds can't hurt under some warm sweat pants and a sweater. Whatever, I guess I am trying to make myself feel better...?
I love this time of year though. I can't stop listening to B101 or 104.5 because I have a sick obsession with christmas songs. Now, I understand I am jewish, I celebrate HANNUKAH, but no one said I would get punished for LOVING the christmas holiday. And I LOVE it. I wish I could celebrate it sometimes. Like that dream I always have, of waking up in matching flannel pajamas, and a comfy warm robe, with cute slippers, running down a big staircase dressed in christmas lights, and approaching an enormous tree with ornaments and lights and a huge star on top, and there are a million presents all for me underneath the tree. And songs like "It's beginning to look a lot like christmas" or "Jingle bells" are playing while I open all of the presents. *Sigh* Is it wrong for a jew to have such dreams as these? I think it's kind of ironic that for hannukah last year I got christmas CD's from mommy. Then again, I would get a gift like that. Though I love this time of year, I also wish I could get away for a week or so to someplace hot. We used to go away for christmas break, but we aren't this year... and I would give anything to be in a warm island for a while. *Sigh-again* I guess it will be ok though cuddling (or drinking vodka) with the big BNIZZ...hehe
I BEAT BOWSER TODAY. I was in disbelief. I had been trying ever since bnizz left my house.. and I FINALLY FUCKING DID IT. I SAVED THE PRINCESS. And boy was I excited. I danced around my room, and I called up Bnizz and yelled "I BEAT THE GAME!!! PRINCESS TOADSTOOL IS SAVED!!!" Is it normal for an 18 year old to get THIS excited about super nintendo? Fuck that, it felt good. :)
I can't believe how much I procrastinate. It's become the worst habit I have.. becuase I get stressed about it, though I continuously do it. How can I put of SO many things and plan to get them all done in like one hour on a sunday night? I should see a shrink about that. I need to learn some kind of skill with time management especially before I go to college. Though I think I will be better with procrastination at college...ugh...wanna know where I will be already! But that's another entry.
AP Spanish my ass. I can't do this stupid essay right now. I wish I could just blink my eyes and it would be done. I really don't even give a shit how it turns out. That class is just so bad. And APES? Have I learned anything this year? It's weird.. like of course you take classes and they are hard and you think you aren' t learning things, when you actually are. Well with APES, I sort of thought taht in the beginning.. but I really haven't learned a THING. I just don't see the point of the class.. I almost wish I took AP chem or bio just so I would have something to challenge myself with, or some direction I was supposed to be going toward.. But no, I chose APES, the pointless science class that gives you AP credit. Oh well.
I cannot believe auditions are THIS WEEK. I can't wait to sing my song. I was talking to brendan about it today, obviously, and it really is shocking that this will be my last audition at harriton. I can't wait to get the hell out of harriton, but leaving HTC will be a really difficult thing to do. It is the reason I go to school. I love it. I think that's what puts the pressure on this last audition because this is the one I want to make the most special, since it is literally my last. I know this goes for all the seniors... break all your legs guys. I love you.
Well, I guess it's time to wrap up tonight. Who knows if I will start homework or not right now. I sure as hell need sleep though. I love sleep now! I used to hate it. But now, it is veryy nice. So goodnight to you all, stay warm in your beds on this freezing night... maybe it will snow more and school will be cancelled...? Nah, that never happens at harriton. Booooo.
Peace and Love.
I love this time of year though. I can't stop listening to B101 or 104.5 because I have a sick obsession with christmas songs. Now, I understand I am jewish, I celebrate HANNUKAH, but no one said I would get punished for LOVING the christmas holiday. And I LOVE it. I wish I could celebrate it sometimes. Like that dream I always have, of waking up in matching flannel pajamas, and a comfy warm robe, with cute slippers, running down a big staircase dressed in christmas lights, and approaching an enormous tree with ornaments and lights and a huge star on top, and there are a million presents all for me underneath the tree. And songs like "It's beginning to look a lot like christmas" or "Jingle bells" are playing while I open all of the presents. *Sigh* Is it wrong for a jew to have such dreams as these? I think it's kind of ironic that for hannukah last year I got christmas CD's from mommy. Then again, I would get a gift like that. Though I love this time of year, I also wish I could get away for a week or so to someplace hot. We used to go away for christmas break, but we aren't this year... and I would give anything to be in a warm island for a while. *Sigh-again* I guess it will be ok though cuddling (or drinking vodka) with the big BNIZZ...hehe
I BEAT BOWSER TODAY. I was in disbelief. I had been trying ever since bnizz left my house.. and I FINALLY FUCKING DID IT. I SAVED THE PRINCESS. And boy was I excited. I danced around my room, and I called up Bnizz and yelled "I BEAT THE GAME!!! PRINCESS TOADSTOOL IS SAVED!!!" Is it normal for an 18 year old to get THIS excited about super nintendo? Fuck that, it felt good. :)
I can't believe how much I procrastinate. It's become the worst habit I have.. becuase I get stressed about it, though I continuously do it. How can I put of SO many things and plan to get them all done in like one hour on a sunday night? I should see a shrink about that. I need to learn some kind of skill with time management especially before I go to college. Though I think I will be better with procrastination at college...ugh...wanna know where I will be already! But that's another entry.
AP Spanish my ass. I can't do this stupid essay right now. I wish I could just blink my eyes and it would be done. I really don't even give a shit how it turns out. That class is just so bad. And APES? Have I learned anything this year? It's weird.. like of course you take classes and they are hard and you think you aren' t learning things, when you actually are. Well with APES, I sort of thought taht in the beginning.. but I really haven't learned a THING. I just don't see the point of the class.. I almost wish I took AP chem or bio just so I would have something to challenge myself with, or some direction I was supposed to be going toward.. But no, I chose APES, the pointless science class that gives you AP credit. Oh well.
I cannot believe auditions are THIS WEEK. I can't wait to sing my song. I was talking to brendan about it today, obviously, and it really is shocking that this will be my last audition at harriton. I can't wait to get the hell out of harriton, but leaving HTC will be a really difficult thing to do. It is the reason I go to school. I love it. I think that's what puts the pressure on this last audition because this is the one I want to make the most special, since it is literally my last. I know this goes for all the seniors... break all your legs guys. I love you.
Well, I guess it's time to wrap up tonight. Who knows if I will start homework or not right now. I sure as hell need sleep though. I love sleep now! I used to hate it. But now, it is veryy nice. So goodnight to you all, stay warm in your beds on this freezing night... maybe it will snow more and school will be cancelled...? Nah, that never happens at harriton. Booooo.
Peace and Love.