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So with baseball season starting I have been pretty content the past couple of weeks. My team isn't looking so hot this year but that's okay because I expected it. I was able to go to opening day, I thought I would have a hard time being there but it wasn't as bad as I expected it to be. I am working on my anxiety more and more each day and it seems to have gotten a little better. I survived a Red Sox game at the Coliseum, that has to say something there. Along with my first baseball game Sean is going to teach me how to golf. My mom gave me a set of clubs so he is taking me out this weekend.... I am super excited. Every day it gets a little easier for me, I haven't had an attack for two weeks now I believe. I have learned to accept the attacks, I know they are going to come sometimes so rather than fear an attack coming I just deal with them. I noticed they pass quicker and they aren't so intense if I just let them come rather than try to resist them (as my Doctor's advice). I have drove once in the past 4 months, I still need to work on that. I am deathly afraid of getting behind the wheel, even thinking about it I tense up and start shaking uncontrollably. That is my next step I guess.... living in Sacramento doesn't help the situation but I am going to have to face that fear eventually.