Can't sleep..
So I have 2 jobs now!! Wahoo! I'm so excited.. I start the 26th I think. I am working in the switch board and main information desk as one job in my mom's hospital, and as a patient sitter at my mom's hospital. One pays, $9.85 an hour, and the other pays $8.60 an hour. Plus, I get benefits for both jobs, but I don't need them because my mom has them for our family, so I get like an extra $60 a pay check for not even taking them! I'm so excited! The only thing that sux, is that I've been marijuanna free for almost 3 weeks!! I better take that drug test soon! Seriously, there is no point in moving out because in the summer my parents are never home, so it's like My house, but as soon as summer's over, me n' Teddy will have more than enough money to start our lives to a new level. I will then officially know that my life is on the road to completion. I mean the only other thing I'll need is to get through college n' have my kickass paying career.
On that note, hey Julie, or whoever the fuck takes the time to read my journal and isn't even friends with me: If me and Teddy could be on a planet by ourselves, it would be so kickass!! Then we wouldn't have bitches like you caring about us (oh, but I care about you guys so much).. all we do is talk about eachother, because like I said before, none of you could ever experience the love that we have. I'm living such a highschool life, yet I have a 4.0 (as did I in highschool) and I'm going to the college with the best law school in Michigan, which is what I'm going into, and I will be one of the best damn attorney's ever. I don't spend my time slitting my wrists for attention, and the #1 most important thing in my life is being successful. And the work I have put into my life IS bringing me places, because I've earned it. So oh yeah "I'm not gonna go anywhere", why because I smoke weed?? If you only knew, smoking weed makes me so much more intelligent.
See kids, this is the funny thing. That I even wasted my time on that last paragraph. I mean, you all know what a great person I am, how many friends I have, and no I'm not trying to be conceited. I am just an honest person, and so are all of my friends, and that's why we're so great. Any person outside my circle of friends, please tell me, if you've ever gone through what I went through this past summer??? I brought MY FRIENDS up to MY COTTAGE, and we have one of the best days, and I leave my friends on my island, and what happens?? THEY FUCKING DIE. Or better yet, the ones that survived, I don't even know who they are anymore. They're not the same person, nor will they ever be. But one of my bestest friends Sara Burke lost her first love and even I grew pretty close to Nash. I mean all them weekends chillin' at my crib n' my graduation party was oh so unforgettable (damn u tony broda n tedd) :P ... and those times were just flushed down the fucking drain. WHY? Seriously, that's the question that goes through my head EVERY SINGLE DAY. That kinda shit isn't suppose to happen to your friends! You only see that shit on TV or in movies. But I lost people I love, and it kills me inside. Every single one of my friends has a reason why that day, July31, was their fault... and so do I. Why did we have to go to my cottage that day? Why did some of us leave? If we were all there, it would have never happened. BLAH I don't even wanna think about it anymore.
Tomorrow, or some day soon, me n' Tedd are suppose to go to my grandpa's grave. And that's a whole nother trauma I've had. My papa was my dad, seriously. He raised me and did anything for me, even if it was spoil me too much, but that's what kind of great man he was. For 16 years of my life, he was my best friend. Not only did he die slow and painful, but I had to watch him in a hospital bed in my house. I had to take care of him when he puked up even a glass of water because he couldn't eat anymore. I had to watch him go from fixing anything he could find and going to the store 5 times a day, to he couldn't even get out of bed to go to the bathroom. Ahh, I need to stop, I'm gettin' all teary on y'all!
D.E.M.F. Is only 1 month away!! WeeeEeeEeeEEEEEEEEeeeeeeEEee! Oh and Tedd's prom, what a oh-so-pleasant time that will be ;)
nite' all, time to try n' get some sleepy sleeP!
On that note, hey Julie, or whoever the fuck takes the time to read my journal and isn't even friends with me: If me and Teddy could be on a planet by ourselves, it would be so kickass!! Then we wouldn't have bitches like you caring about us (oh, but I care about you guys so much).. all we do is talk about eachother, because like I said before, none of you could ever experience the love that we have. I'm living such a highschool life, yet I have a 4.0 (as did I in highschool) and I'm going to the college with the best law school in Michigan, which is what I'm going into, and I will be one of the best damn attorney's ever. I don't spend my time slitting my wrists for attention, and the #1 most important thing in my life is being successful. And the work I have put into my life IS bringing me places, because I've earned it. So oh yeah "I'm not gonna go anywhere", why because I smoke weed?? If you only knew, smoking weed makes me so much more intelligent.
See kids, this is the funny thing. That I even wasted my time on that last paragraph. I mean, you all know what a great person I am, how many friends I have, and no I'm not trying to be conceited. I am just an honest person, and so are all of my friends, and that's why we're so great. Any person outside my circle of friends, please tell me, if you've ever gone through what I went through this past summer??? I brought MY FRIENDS up to MY COTTAGE, and we have one of the best days, and I leave my friends on my island, and what happens?? THEY FUCKING DIE. Or better yet, the ones that survived, I don't even know who they are anymore. They're not the same person, nor will they ever be. But one of my bestest friends Sara Burke lost her first love and even I grew pretty close to Nash. I mean all them weekends chillin' at my crib n' my graduation party was oh so unforgettable (damn u tony broda n tedd) :P ... and those times were just flushed down the fucking drain. WHY? Seriously, that's the question that goes through my head EVERY SINGLE DAY. That kinda shit isn't suppose to happen to your friends! You only see that shit on TV or in movies. But I lost people I love, and it kills me inside. Every single one of my friends has a reason why that day, July31, was their fault... and so do I. Why did we have to go to my cottage that day? Why did some of us leave? If we were all there, it would have never happened. BLAH I don't even wanna think about it anymore.
Tomorrow, or some day soon, me n' Tedd are suppose to go to my grandpa's grave. And that's a whole nother trauma I've had. My papa was my dad, seriously. He raised me and did anything for me, even if it was spoil me too much, but that's what kind of great man he was. For 16 years of my life, he was my best friend. Not only did he die slow and painful, but I had to watch him in a hospital bed in my house. I had to take care of him when he puked up even a glass of water because he couldn't eat anymore. I had to watch him go from fixing anything he could find and going to the store 5 times a day, to he couldn't even get out of bed to go to the bathroom. Ahh, I need to stop, I'm gettin' all teary on y'all!
D.E.M.F. Is only 1 month away!! WeeeEeeEeeEEEEEEEEeeeeeeEEee! Oh and Tedd's prom, what a oh-so-pleasant time that will be ;)
nite' all, time to try n' get some sleepy sleeP!