Taking This One to the Grave

[tamakito]

Spoilers: Up to 2.08.
Warnings: Bullying, homophobia, sexual assault, mentions suicide attempt.
Rating: R-ish, erring on the side of caution
Word Count: 4, 749
Disclaimer: RIB and FOX own everything ever.
Also available: In fantabulous podfic format as read by diane_mckay.

This prompt. Some people have diaries; Kurt has Azimio, his French partner for the

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Okay, I am super glad that all didn't come off as a bunch of meaningless and overly-enthusiastic blathering. I worry!

I totally remembered the Brittany/Britney scenes shortly after posting this, both the letterjacket-tearing/not-hitting-Artie scene and the other one where they kind of tag-team harass Rachel and Finn--Azimio comments on her outfit, Karofsky calls Finn gay. It was so weirdly coordinated.

I LOVED that Puck calls Finn his best friend and his boy in the same episode, the first to his face (well, he calls himself Finn's best friend anyway) and the second to Quinn. It's this effortless codeswitching that just fascinates me. And then using it for Kurt a year later--it is endlessly entertaining to me that it's marked as the masculine, acceptable option because of course to fans like us, it reads SO homoerotic. The Puck/Kurt squealing in people's reaction posts to 2x09 was DEAFENING. *g*

I think a big part of what made Kurt making that phone call ultimately believable, for me, was that he'd been told about the suicide attempt. At the time he was being attacked it would make everything so much scarier, because clearly Karofsky has nothing to lose, but afterward I just--I can't see Kurt as being able to deal with his own trauma at all if he feels any lingering sense of responsibility. It's so clear in that scene that he just wants to offload all his knowledge of how fucked up Karofsky is onto someone else, so he can stop having to deal with that on top of his own issues. Like, he's leaving McKinley and he wants to put this whole horrible mess behind him, but because he's Kurt he can't just put it out of his mind that Karofsky's in danger.

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DUUUUDE. This is a worry-free zone. I am an attention whore at heart, I love discussing my fic, or having a chat springboarded by a fic. (I plan on segueing very far away in a minute, fair warning there.)

Oh god, I forgot that part. "How come the gay guys get the hot chicks" lol dude, I don't see one on your arm, oh ice burn. I want to rewatch that episode now and I really should go to bed.

Also, re: Azimio being the leader, oh god peeps. I was just checking the Wiki to figure out which episode that was in and saw some truly impressive mental gymnastics - Karofsky is plainly the leader and brains of their duo but also is only following Azimio's lead in bullying the glee kids. I need some kind of .gif for this fuckery, yo.

Negl, some of the post-"my boy" squealing on Tumblr was a little alarming. I was sitting there like, "...okay, I loved that weird little turn of phrase too, but we are clear on what he actually meant, yeah?" Of course, I was also distracted by Puck's and Schue's faces during "Hey Soul Sister" because wow what. There was a great .gif going around of Schue's face with BITCH YOU ARE NOTHING WITHOUT ME overlaid, I think I saved it somewhere.

Yessss, that. The phone call. It was kind of a caring gesture, but it was mostly a "make this not be my problem" one. Which, then Azimio just turned around and was like "make this not be a problem at all" to K-Money, so. Now I want to write a follow-up to this, too. Gorram, yo.

SPEAKING OF FOLLOW-UPS I am planning an epic one to "Not While I'm Around" after S2 ends, based on our discussion over there. I want to wait for summer because 1) summer project and 2) I'm hoping the show will give me something to go on Finn/Puck-wise, and am sure it will give me something to go on Karofsky-wise. If they give him a redemption arc this season, I want to use him, too, because I like this bullying continuum thing, it's very convenient.

Speaking of both that and my segue, have you seen this Filled with Glee book that's floating around? I am a huge fan of essay-books based on TV shows due to my Buffy devotion. And I'm only a few essays into this one and wouldn't suggest purchasing it or anything so far, BUT. There's a very interesting li'l essay called "Who's the Real LIMA Loser?: The Curious Friendship of Finn Hudson and Noah Puckerman" by Dellamonica, which I would completely recommend reading if you're ever in a bookstore for an hour or so. (It's preceded by the weirdest fucking thing I have ever read, "The Alpha Glee Male", about which I will no doubt rant at length at some point.)

Okay no really, bed.

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omg, Schue's face during Soul Sister was so ridiculous. I couldn't even start figuring out some kind of in-character fanwank because what on EARTH.

I am SUPER EXCITED about a followup to "Not While I'm Around"! It would fulfill so many of my dreams. And that essay sounds extremely relevant to my interests, goodness. I don't really have any real hope for Puck getting much of anything substantial the rest of this season--I get the feeling that the character was created to serve one purpose and undergo, like, one major change, and nobody has a clue what to do with him after that purpose is through nor are they particularly interested in him anymore. But if anything does happen I will of course be delighted.