Home Part 3-C

[tamakito]

Spoilers: Up to 2.22
Warnings: Kidnapping, violence, ableism, homophobia, physical abuse by a caretaker, a smidgen of Stockholm's, serious injury, tertiary character death.
Rating: R
Word Count: Whole fic: 52, 000; Part 3: 23, 340
Disclaimer: RIB and FOX own everything ever.
Beta: rdm-ation

1A | 1B | 2A | 2B | 3A | 3B | 3C

This prompt. If Will wants a

Comments

[ellydash]

God. I just. Wow.

A link to this popped up on my tumblr dash, and I'm so, so glad, because otherwise I might not have seen it and then read it and I would've been missing out on something seriously great. This made me nauseous and shaky and upset and I'm still glad I read it, and that is a testament to what a good job you did with this premise. The tension you sustain here is especially fantastic; my heart was in my mouth during the entire last part. Terri was just the right mix of terrifyingly psychotic and pathetic, and even though I never empathized with her, I was able to understand why she did what she did. Rachel made my heart break throughout this entire fic, especially here:

But Terri smelled nice, she was soft against Rachel’s side and she was teaching her to sew, and - they had to humor her anyway - and she kissed Rachel’s cheek when she did well and her lipstick felt sticky on Rachel’s face, and… it wasn’t terrible. It didn’t hurt like Shelby did.That, to me, was the saddest part of this by far (maybe only outweighed by

[tamakito]

Goddamn you person how did you even do this, like, you'd read this whole ridiculous thing as soon as it was even posted, I want your mad skills.

SO BUT IN MORE IMPORTANT NEWS OMG THANK YOU SO MU-U-U-UCH basically just sobbing right now because this, obviously, took me rather a long time to write, and lol by the end I pretty much had convinced myself that it sucked anyway, so you are basically my kiss of life rn. I AM GLAD YOU SAW THAT LINK ALSO BECAUSE HOLY SWEET HELL. This is an awesome comment.

SO BUT TO BE SPECIFIC, whoa, okay, I'm sorry it made you nauseous and shaky! I mean I meant it to be upsetting but damn, I'm sorry about that part! OVERKILL, ADI. So I'm extra tickled you're still glad to have read it, and I'm just over the moon you got Terri and felt for Rachel, esp. in those two parts, which I quite enjoyed writing but didn't think anyone would really... notice, I guess? I have a lot of Rachel/parent feelings, idk idk

[ellydash]

Haha, I think it was one of those things where the link was posted right after you posted the fic? And I saw the link right away and started reading? And I literally read for a living so I'm really good at doing it fast. :D

No but that feeling you get after you work super hard on a fic (especially a fic this long -- I've never written anything over 20k words but I can imagine how much effort and energy and time this thing took, holy cow) and you're waiting to see how it went over and you don't know yet -- that feeling is not fun. So I'm happy I got to be that first person for you that lets you know you did awesomely! Because you did. :DDDD Oh, and don't be sorry for my reaction to it! Like, I don't know, if I didn't have that kind of reaction I'd be sort of worried about myself? Because, idk, I feel like a fic dealing with this sort of thing should elicit that kind of response, or something close to it.

[burn_to_emerge]

This is seriously one of the best Glee fics I've ever read. It honestly did not feel like ~50,000 words because I was completely engaged the entire time, you did such an amazing job in keeping everyone on edge.

And this may just make me sound psychotic, but I actually laughed a lot. Terri is so stunningly insane, and Kurt and Rachel so very themselves that when I wasn't busy wanting to cry or slam my laptop shut in sheer horror, I was laughing. Or, more often, feeling all of those things at once.

This comment in no way does my feelings about this fic justice. Just an amazing job. ♥

[tamakito]

Oh shit. Omfg. Okay so thank you so much! I am, believe me, acutely aware of how long this is personally, so I'm v. happy indeed that it didn't drag for you! And like, no, you don't even know, thank you so extremely for that about laughing a lot - I really did mean it to be funny in a lot of places, because, I mean, Glee, and these characters are fundamentally funny people in a lot of ways, not that they'd think so - but like. I saw this prompt forever ago and actually specifically said that I loved it but wouldn't want to do it because I wouldn't be able to get the mix of humor and horror right, and then a friend dared me to write it anyway, so um LONG RAMBLING STORY SHORT it relieves me greatly to know that you lol'd in addition to the less good feelings.

NO THIS COMMENT IS AMAZING, seriously thank you so much!

[airgeer]

oh man. I don't even know what to say.

See, this was amazing and terrifying and just, oh my god, Terri's clumsy attempts to manipulate Kurt and Rachel through the "home schooling" and everything else, and neither of them made it through intact, and they're going to struggle the rest of their lives, and I'm not crying, it's just raining inside.

But even through all that, the character that I felt the most for was Sugar. Because, just ;_;, I figured out it must be her at the beginning of 3A, and :(. I don't even have words, just emoticons. Because she must have been so scared, and she died all by herself, and then she got cut up and left in a plastic container in a hot attic to rot and got fed piece by piece to alligators, and her dad never really found out what happened to her body, and I'm pretty sure that makes this qualify for darkest gleefic ever, pretty much, save for a few exceptions, and you really didn't shy back from it at all.

Congratulations on your skill at horror and stuff and stuff! I will not be sleeping tonight <3

[airgeer]

Also, I forgot to add, the difference between Kurt and Rachel at the beginning and the end of the fic, omg. Like, Kurt goes from craving privacy to needing people,and just, Rachel, omg, poor bb.

Also also, I meant to comment about the art, which was so creepy and perfect for the tone of the fic. Kudos to the artist :)

[tamakito]

Re: art: OMG ISN'T IT. It's like she's holding little dead dolls of them I can't.

Also yes good I am perversely pleased to have caused pain with Kurt's newfound dependence and... man, Rachel: Dialed to Over 9000. YOU ARE A SWEET AND KIND PERSON AIRGEER.

[tamakito]

OMG HUGS HUGS HUGS

Okay so I'm super over the moon that you liked this obvs, and that it was scary and lol PEOPLE WHO DON'T DEVELOP STOCKHOLM'S ARE EVIL: THE SCHOOLING, and yeah basically I made their lives awful forever - or at least a lot harder forever, which

[ileliberte]

I legit have no idea how to leave a comment for this (watch me blather on for paragraphs after saying that though)... I am so creeped out and the horror was just so much more horrific because of how rational Terri sounded in her own head and omg you didn't pull any punches at all. My parents had this picture book about the Okefenokee swamp and one of the first pictures was this dark, murky image of the swamp in barely any light, with a couple of yellow eyes looking out right above the waterline. I had to tuck the book into the end of the shelf because even having it near me freaked me out so much. I was ten then, but this was almost like that, where it's not just that actual image of the alligators in the swamp with poor Sugar's body, but just the whole fic where Terri is this horrendous monster but its just sort of lurking underneath until it comes out in the worst way and it's all so horrible and frightening

[tamakito]

Ffffffffffffffffffff girl why you so splendid to me tho "Terri is this horrendous monster but its just sort of lurking underneath until it comes out in the worst way" best thing you could saaaay I love writing horror so much, am possibly a bad person but you know; also omg I want that book, that picture sounds gorg creepy.

Omg okay and I'm super pleased you liked the bits with Kurt calling Carole "mom" and the Terri/Shelby situation (for given values of "liked" natch) and I'm all shades of flattered that you think well enough of the writing here to feel bad about Kurt and Rachel being messed up in Fanficlandia, and in general I'm over the moon you felt things about this, so omg thank youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!

[chunkymonkeh]

This. This fic is perfect. I was so engrossed in it. I wanted absolutely no distractions while reading. glee fanfic is srs bsns. Poor Rachel and Kurt! My babieesss

I've always loved your fics and I love kurt-angst so this was such an enjoyable read. And it was long too how i've missed reading longfic! Thank you for this! One of my faves for sure!

[tamakito]

Omg okay so: thank you first off because I'm tickled pink you wanted to pay full attention here! And thanks second because ooooh you like mah writingssss, you sweet sweet thing! Also omg I know right, I like me a nice long fic - although tbh I like them even longer than this and this is still the longest I've ever done, fail Adi, ah well, we contribute what we can to fandom, and ANYWAY thank you for your lovely comment! Kurt angsters unite!