quick question
is anyone in the opinion that ritualistic pain is wrong? just a question...
this sounds stupid but im blaming myself for any and everything that goes wrong at the moment and therefore every and anything is going wrong someone tell me when im doin somthing right so i can die happy
but to add a positive note to this (keep carly happy):i am positive im not going to the ball for the following reasons:
1) i think my performance at the party on wed was a good indicator of how i will go down at the ball (incase you dont know i do actually have accute claustrophobia i cant stand large crowds confined spaces or being surrounded so in short dont ask me along to gigs and stuff {come to think of it i think thats where it started} phew thats better) so unless i can find a way of overcoming this... ... nightmare that seems like a good word, im fucked for life
2) im far too poor to even afford a ticket let alone transport a new suit and booze
3) its fuckin posh (dont tell me it isnt i know what balls are like ive seen cinderella)
4) im not gonna tell you the final reason that is between me, the FIRST dark chronicle, and jack daniels (well you gotta have somthing to drown your sorrows better make it somthing strong!)
so thats it... i dont know why i told you number 1 apart from my shrink only claire knows and i told her wen she was pissed out of her tree so she probably doesnt remember
this sounds stupid but im blaming myself for any and everything that goes wrong at the moment and therefore every and anything is going wrong someone tell me when im doin somthing right so i can die happy
but to add a positive note to this (keep carly happy):i am positive im not going to the ball for the following reasons:
1) i think my performance at the party on wed was a good indicator of how i will go down at the ball (incase you dont know i do actually have accute claustrophobia i cant stand large crowds confined spaces or being surrounded so in short dont ask me along to gigs and stuff {come to think of it i think thats where it started} phew thats better) so unless i can find a way of overcoming this... ... nightmare that seems like a good word, im fucked for life
2) im far too poor to even afford a ticket let alone transport a new suit and booze
3) its fuckin posh (dont tell me it isnt i know what balls are like ive seen cinderella)
4) im not gonna tell you the final reason that is between me, the FIRST dark chronicle, and jack daniels (well you gotta have somthing to drown your sorrows better make it somthing strong!)
so thats it... i dont know why i told you number 1 apart from my shrink only claire knows and i told her wen she was pissed out of her tree so she probably doesnt remember