Struggling with being a grown up
I have had a really bad couple of days. Its all about having the mental age of a 16 yr old and never growing out of stupid girly crushes.
I know that all people have crushes on celebrities and it's accepted but for me it goes way too far. I have become obsessed and it is driving me mad.
It all started last week when I went to bed and wanted something to watch so I watched Angus Thongs and Perfect snogging. It is a teen movie from last year based on the book Angus Thongs and full frontal snogging. For a start it isn't the kind of movie a 39 yr old woman should be watching. Everyone laughs at me for it. Secondly I am not supposed to become obsessed with one of the young stars.
His name is Aaron Johnson and he plays Robbie in the movie. If you know the story that is easy for you but if not See here
I have watched the movie about 20 times now and just skip to my favourite bits. I have also done extensive research and found all the other film and TV work that he has done. As a seasoned non - Stalker I have already got quite a collection now of his work.
My favourite other of his work is Nearly Famous. It was a 6 part series on E4 last year about 4 students at a performing arts school. It was kind of Brittannia High meets Skins. Lots of singing and dancing and drugs and sex. I don't know why I didn't actually watch it when it was on as it is right up my street full of teen angst romance and good looking people.
I downloaded the whole series and it took me 3 days to watch the whole thing. I have also watched it again several times and just picking my favourite best bits. I have even taken a huge array of screencaps from all episodes with some great images that now reside in my wallpaper folder.
I even made a youtube fanvid of the movie using music of Griffin of course.
Isn't this all a bit immature for a woman of my age though? I am having real problems today justifying the fact that I sat up all night last night just watching clips of Aaron over and over again. He is only 19 years old - 2 years and 2 days older than my own daughter. The one thing I think that makes it alright in my twisted brain is that in real life Aaron is dating a 42 year old woman who was the director of his most recent film called Nowhere boy which is the story of young John Lennon. Apparently he went after her and ground her down until she agreed to go out with him and they have now been together for several months.
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I want to be normal. I don't want to spend my life in a fantasy world dreaming about gorgeous actors half my age who I will never get near to. I just want to be normal and have a life of my own.
I know that all people have crushes on celebrities and it's accepted but for me it goes way too far. I have become obsessed and it is driving me mad.
It all started last week when I went to bed and wanted something to watch so I watched Angus Thongs and Perfect snogging. It is a teen movie from last year based on the book Angus Thongs and full frontal snogging. For a start it isn't the kind of movie a 39 yr old woman should be watching. Everyone laughs at me for it. Secondly I am not supposed to become obsessed with one of the young stars.
His name is Aaron Johnson and he plays Robbie in the movie. If you know the story that is easy for you but if not See here
I have watched the movie about 20 times now and just skip to my favourite bits. I have also done extensive research and found all the other film and TV work that he has done. As a seasoned non - Stalker I have already got quite a collection now of his work.
My favourite other of his work is Nearly Famous. It was a 6 part series on E4 last year about 4 students at a performing arts school. It was kind of Brittannia High meets Skins. Lots of singing and dancing and drugs and sex. I don't know why I didn't actually watch it when it was on as it is right up my street full of teen angst romance and good looking people.
I downloaded the whole series and it took me 3 days to watch the whole thing. I have also watched it again several times and just picking my favourite best bits. I have even taken a huge array of screencaps from all episodes with some great images that now reside in my wallpaper folder.
I even made a youtube fanvid of the movie using music of Griffin of course.
Click to viewIsn't this all a bit immature for a woman of my age though? I am having real problems today justifying the fact that I sat up all night last night just watching clips of Aaron over and over again. He is only 19 years old - 2 years and 2 days older than my own daughter. The one thing I think that makes it alright in my twisted brain is that in real life Aaron is dating a 42 year old woman who was the director of his most recent film called Nowhere boy which is the story of young John Lennon. Apparently he went after her and ground her down until she agreed to go out with him and they have now been together for several months.
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I want to be normal. I don't want to spend my life in a fantasy world dreaming about gorgeous actors half my age who I will never get near to. I just want to be normal and have a life of my own.