The time for Change is over (mini rant)
The lions ultimatum to himself, a change to stop the straining and soul stretching that has been eatng away at his good humors. I have been regularly open to change, expanding, trying new things, experimenting and finding the joy in others interests as well as anyone. I have also recived the occasional admonation and sudden emotional slap in the face when others seem to change in front of my eyes, in many cases i've tried to moderate and adapt, and i still will to some extent. To much change rips apart what i value, that is the change i am refusing to entertain. Give me a reason to change, show me why, prove your side, convince me, Help facilliate a compromies, don't preach, and understand the difrence(between preaching and convincing), know that i am willing to bend for someone i've known years, that sort of clout takes years to get(And in most cases years to lose too... big things move slow)
I am what i am, For better or worse, i have a myriad of personlity traits, have an unmatched flexiblity and range. I also for the most part toil and create where none but a handful keep up with all parts. I create what i get inspieration from, which can come from many places, but can never be forced even from myself. I don't ask people to do things they don't want, and though the charcters i've designed range from eviler than satan himself to the very moral with my own avatar in the soft kind end. Yes, some might think the ideas leo shows have less than moral results, but the methods are important too. Its rare that people can't talk there way out of being a lions lunch for instance(Albiet they may end up with alot of bad food jokes), and i keep the player and the character seperate for such reasons. Deep down i'm probally very generous, especially with those i've become close too over the past years, those i feel i know the best and trust. We share a bond that i'm thankful to have. I am what i am. Those who know me know it well, i stand by that.
I won't go into specifics to why i'm feeling like this, its a combination of 2 or 3 things, could probally even be just that sorta mood where i'm prickily and tender to hurt. Frustration perhaps too. It reminds me of the spat a couple years ago when people began to make more and more requests about how they would be used in a story, and that stoped my open signups. People who are asked to be in my story have a right to make a request, those that ask to be have quite few, and yet i Try to be open minded. I think nearly everyone who has appaeared in my stories have been pleased in the way they were treated, and furthermore the fact that i've scrapped a few stories halfway through because they weren't going to end satisfactory to the peoples tastes. I don't make things public before getting the approval of all involed, I work with those i bring into a story, and since i know most of those people know it works well, understanding and the needed level of trust has been earned.
I try to take things seriously, and feel the same about relationships, I build a sturdy foundation, and learn about people, its what allows everything else to come, try to strain that foundation before its rock solid and it probally won't work, ask to much, in any endevor(rp, writting, art) and things are likely to stymie. Being patient to let the foundation settle and i will ask you(that or get so flustered about bothering you i'll be shyly nosing over, thats really easy to tell with me, i'm not good at subtle) Good things take time, its something to remember, yes life is short but like a well performed play the payoff of a well crafted freindship can be an amazing encore
Thats the end for now, it's not aimed at anyone in particular in a negitive sense, its just me being me, and remember those of you who HAVE earned my long term trust, i'll try anything for you and if i'm not in a specific mood it certainly does not mean i care and cherish you any less. Everyone who has such trust is real special... and i get all clingy for when feeling alone... thats what amazing freinds are for right?
Thanks for listening, getting some things off my chest, maybe that'll help me be more zen the rest of the evening.
I am what i am, For better or worse, i have a myriad of personlity traits, have an unmatched flexiblity and range. I also for the most part toil and create where none but a handful keep up with all parts. I create what i get inspieration from, which can come from many places, but can never be forced even from myself. I don't ask people to do things they don't want, and though the charcters i've designed range from eviler than satan himself to the very moral with my own avatar in the soft kind end. Yes, some might think the ideas leo shows have less than moral results, but the methods are important too. Its rare that people can't talk there way out of being a lions lunch for instance(Albiet they may end up with alot of bad food jokes), and i keep the player and the character seperate for such reasons. Deep down i'm probally very generous, especially with those i've become close too over the past years, those i feel i know the best and trust. We share a bond that i'm thankful to have. I am what i am. Those who know me know it well, i stand by that.
I won't go into specifics to why i'm feeling like this, its a combination of 2 or 3 things, could probally even be just that sorta mood where i'm prickily and tender to hurt. Frustration perhaps too. It reminds me of the spat a couple years ago when people began to make more and more requests about how they would be used in a story, and that stoped my open signups. People who are asked to be in my story have a right to make a request, those that ask to be have quite few, and yet i Try to be open minded. I think nearly everyone who has appaeared in my stories have been pleased in the way they were treated, and furthermore the fact that i've scrapped a few stories halfway through because they weren't going to end satisfactory to the peoples tastes. I don't make things public before getting the approval of all involed, I work with those i bring into a story, and since i know most of those people know it works well, understanding and the needed level of trust has been earned.
I try to take things seriously, and feel the same about relationships, I build a sturdy foundation, and learn about people, its what allows everything else to come, try to strain that foundation before its rock solid and it probally won't work, ask to much, in any endevor(rp, writting, art) and things are likely to stymie. Being patient to let the foundation settle and i will ask you(that or get so flustered about bothering you i'll be shyly nosing over, thats really easy to tell with me, i'm not good at subtle) Good things take time, its something to remember, yes life is short but like a well performed play the payoff of a well crafted freindship can be an amazing encore
Thats the end for now, it's not aimed at anyone in particular in a negitive sense, its just me being me, and remember those of you who HAVE earned my long term trust, i'll try anything for you and if i'm not in a specific mood it certainly does not mean i care and cherish you any less. Everyone who has such trust is real special... and i get all clingy for when feeling alone... thats what amazing freinds are for right?
Thanks for listening, getting some things off my chest, maybe that'll help me be more zen the rest of the evening.