if ya didn't already know,
i'm single, and not lovein it, this blows, now mind you we've been broken up scince i think 2 weeks before christmas... i dunno, i do remember that it was 3 days after i bought her christmas present so i was like: well shit.... i gave it to her anyway 2 days before christmas break started anyway,, not like i've got any use for a braclet... and i couldn't return it, i bought it at a christmas craft thing my old school does each year... come to think of it, which was awesome, got to catch up with some good friends, actually, that freakin rocked...goodtimes, anyway
i kinda want to be in another relationship, but at the same time don't... i mean, the commitment in a relationship doesn't bother me, i don't feel "restricted" when in one, and it's not like i hate love or anything, but, i just don't care... and i don't know why... and thats not to say i don't have a crush on someone, because i do... but it doesn't bombard my mind as it once did, only when i'm not really thinkin about other stuff, it never really interupts other thoughts, and thats not sayin the girl i like isn't cute, and funny, and, just, awesome, because she is, she really is,... but i guess it's because i don't get to talk to her much, but when we do hang out it's awesome, (and for the record guy's, she's a senior)... i've learned my lesson about the younger women, i don't think even they know what they want... or mabey i am right, i just kinda lose my novelty after a month or so, what ever,
on a side note, i think megan may be falling for me again,its nothing concrete, but it's a sneaking suspision, and let me throw this in for the sake of you people thinking"why the hell would you go back to her you weak bastard" i've no intention to... ever. i'm just mentioning something i think i've picked up on. she's been givein me the same look she used to just before i asked her out a month and 3 days befor last easter, wether she realizes i notice or not i can't tell, but, meh, dead issue anyway
i guess what i'm really sayin in all this is, i love you guys(no im not drunk) seriously, even when you guys are raggin' on me, or destroying my brain, or makeing me twitchier than i already am, and even when you guys plain old hit me outa no where*coughcough-brandy-cough* and especialy when i say "i hate you guys..." or "you guys suck" i hope yall know i mean quite the opposite, ya'll are family to me, and it means alot that your are there, and that you guys care, okay, im gonna get outa here before you guys think i've compleatly lost my mind,
~laterz
i kinda want to be in another relationship, but at the same time don't... i mean, the commitment in a relationship doesn't bother me, i don't feel "restricted" when in one, and it's not like i hate love or anything, but, i just don't care... and i don't know why... and thats not to say i don't have a crush on someone, because i do... but it doesn't bombard my mind as it once did, only when i'm not really thinkin about other stuff, it never really interupts other thoughts, and thats not sayin the girl i like isn't cute, and funny, and, just, awesome, because she is, she really is,... but i guess it's because i don't get to talk to her much, but when we do hang out it's awesome, (and for the record guy's, she's a senior)... i've learned my lesson about the younger women, i don't think even they know what they want... or mabey i am right, i just kinda lose my novelty after a month or so, what ever,
on a side note, i think megan may be falling for me again,its nothing concrete, but it's a sneaking suspision, and let me throw this in for the sake of you people thinking"why the hell would you go back to her you weak bastard" i've no intention to... ever. i'm just mentioning something i think i've picked up on. she's been givein me the same look she used to just before i asked her out a month and 3 days befor last easter, wether she realizes i notice or not i can't tell, but, meh, dead issue anyway
i guess what i'm really sayin in all this is, i love you guys(no im not drunk) seriously, even when you guys are raggin' on me, or destroying my brain, or makeing me twitchier than i already am, and even when you guys plain old hit me outa no where*coughcough-brandy-cough* and especialy when i say "i hate you guys..." or "you guys suck" i hope yall know i mean quite the opposite, ya'll are family to me, and it means alot that your are there, and that you guys care, okay, im gonna get outa here before you guys think i've compleatly lost my mind,
~laterz