Lucid Dreaming
God dammit..... I'm so close.... well sort of. It's still all random when it happens, But I'm getting better at keeping it going.
I'm my dream I was standing in fromt of this building, it's a real building, I had to work there for a while....
Visualize standing on the street, looking to one side. there is a huge builging, you're looking at the center base,where there is an opening, like an enterance to a parking lot,streight into the building. Sorry, I had it in the dream, but right now I can't remember exactly what that gap was for or exactly what it looked like.... I don't believe it was a parking lot, but it was the easiest way to describe the opening. Now, in front of that opening is a single guardrail barrier. Just inside the barrier there are 2 doors facing eachother, with a couple steps down to ground level.
In my dream I remembered this place, though I called it something different, like the stadium or something..... I knew this was wrong and called it out... that I was dreaming and knew it..... Almost woke myself up, but was able to calm... what, my autonomic system? Managed to keep everything relaxed, slowed down, asleep. Kept it that way long enough to manipulate the environment a bit.... Then pushed it to far to fast, and couldn't stop waking all the way..... Dammit.
Soon...... well, hopefuly soon, I'll be able to hold it together, and fully controll it. Now the problem comes to Instigate the lucid dreaming, without it being a random accidental thing. Then I will be able to fully walk my dreams..... Then maybe find the hidden city of Kadath. though that will have to wait a couple more years regardless..... at least till my youngest gets old enough to hate her daddy like everyone else, and doesn't want him around..... Then I can go, dissapear, No one will care......
Found this woman that does a version of Sandman.... Was told it's creepy and such. So I had to hear it. Fuck I love this womans voice. Though I don't see creepy..... Haunting maybe Creepy would be more like a discordand music box..... Now that scared the fuck out of me, every time..... But hers is more haunting, soft.... like a memory maybe.... a memory just out of reach, or maybe just behind you, one you don't want to remember, but it's creeping closer every time you stop to think..... I dunno, I think I'm a poor Hand at description. I still love this song.......
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