everything is falling into place.. and now I have to leave
I dont even know where to start there is just SO much to say... So everything at school is falling into place.. im finding my niche and now I have to leave... dont get me wrong im SO excited to go home for the summer and be with all my Madison peeps im just gonna miss my life right now... the girls... the guy.... I finally feel like this is the place for me.. it has taken me so long to realize that. This semester I have made friends in my classes and over all have become more social.. im opening up and becoming me and it feels So great. I am in love with my roomies, Em Ash and I couldnt be better friends then we are now.. I feel semi guilty because Tessa is clearly not a part of us but oh well.. its gonna be so wierd to be away from them this summer.. and then not having Em next year.. they are the biggest part of my new life. and now there is a new edition to my life.. Chris.. him and I hooked up at the formal and now have started tlaking again.. we talked on the phone Wednesday night for over 4 hours... it was the easiest conversation i think I have ever had... I almost think we are perfect for one another, we are one in the same. Thursday(yesterday) he decided he would stop by after class.. at first I was nervous and things were kinda wierd since I hadnt seen him for over 3 weeks and we both knew we liked one another, but things got normal real quick.. I didnt know if he was just stopping by or he wanted to chill or what so we just winged it. We talked.. watched Gilmore Girls he he.. and then he decided he would stay and watch a movie with me.. We had dinner with the roomies and watched The OC.. by this time it was 8 and i fully expected him to bolt but he didnt.. he showed no interest in leaving, in fact, he asked if we were still going to rent a movie and we did.. him Ash and I watched a movie and he couldnt have been any sweetier snuggling and such. After the movie things just fell into place or I should say we fell into one another.. I dont remember the last time I connected with someone so well.. if ever. and then he ended up sleeping over.. he never once wanted to leave and that gave me the best feeling.. even cuter.. he called me when he got out of class at 12:30.. only 4 hours after he left the apartment.. and now he is coming over tomorrow after baseball for only like 4 hours.. and then Sunday he is coming over after baseball too. to watch a scary movie.. and then im thinking ill ask him to sleep over.. im hoping its not too forward.. but it just makes sense...I dont know. its just hard for me to believe that someone likes me this much (although i guess i dont know the extent of his feelings)... i need to get used to it..and just have faith.. but then im gonna leave it (to go home)and thats gonna suck.. i hope I dont get attached as ive been known to do that.. im just hoping these questions in my head will be answered in time.. i mean ive only got not even 4 weeks