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I think Neil is mad at me. I think I am going to get fired soon. I think Im going to be fucking poor next week too. Im quite stressed about the whole deal realy. I just want to go use. I need to clean my shower today. Trin called yesterday about that money, I told her I could give it to her, but of course Kate. M fucks me around with the money she owes me, so I didnt get it to Trin after all, and shes gonna be getting pissed off, but fuck Im getting pissed off with people oweing me money too. I get the feeling that mabey Neil doent want me to hang out with him today. I think Im just going to carry on with my The plans I have already made, No one told me about the christmas work schedule, and nearly everything clashes with plans I have already made, and I do not want to work that many hours and that late and night and fuck The whole fucking deal. I dont realy want to even tell anyone that Im supposed to be working extra hours, because it will make me feel guilty for not going, "You will loose your job if you dont go", "Think of the extra money, you need the money", "Its not like your too busy or anything"...... I just cant handle working the extra. I dont want to. If they had wanted me to they could have fucking said something a lot earlier. I will not do it.