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i'm in england, so this has to be fast.
i'm really bored in the countryside and can't wait until we go to london.
and i actually just really want to be home right now.
i miss camp and everyone in it.
i kind of realized that in the summer i don't want to go away for a long time. i want to be home, at camp, because it's like my getaway. it's where i feel safe and confident and happy and there's no one from school. it's just like away from the real world for a while, and then i go back to school and i'm okay again.
colleen is okay. she's mad that ic alled ryan a jerk, and i'm sorry she's mad but i'm not sorry i said it. because he is to me. he can be REALLY mean to me. i'm sure i'm mean back, but i don't mean it vindictively, it's just defensiveness without thinking.
i want to be home. or in the city. or something.
this isn't really any kind of getaway. it's just a kind of trap to think too much.
i don't know about boys. you know? like i want one, because i want one. but i'm so confused.
damn. gotta go.
i'm really bored in the countryside and can't wait until we go to london.
and i actually just really want to be home right now.
i miss camp and everyone in it.
i kind of realized that in the summer i don't want to go away for a long time. i want to be home, at camp, because it's like my getaway. it's where i feel safe and confident and happy and there's no one from school. it's just like away from the real world for a while, and then i go back to school and i'm okay again.
colleen is okay. she's mad that ic alled ryan a jerk, and i'm sorry she's mad but i'm not sorry i said it. because he is to me. he can be REALLY mean to me. i'm sure i'm mean back, but i don't mean it vindictively, it's just defensiveness without thinking.
i want to be home. or in the city. or something.
this isn't really any kind of getaway. it's just a kind of trap to think too much.
i don't know about boys. you know? like i want one, because i want one. but i'm so confused.
damn. gotta go.