Theatrical Muse Reboot - #71 - What is your worst character flaw?
I haven't exactly spent a lot of time in self-examination. I'm not sure what my worst character flaw is.
I mean, that isn't to say by any means that I think I'm without them. I may not be precisely human but I am close enough for government work and in this particular instance that means that like any human I've got as many things going wrong for me as I've got going right for me. After all, nobody's perfect amongst the human race, and I've yet to meet a willworker, werewolf, fairy or freaking undead who qualifies for that particular adjective either. People are inherently flawed, that's what makes them interesting. I think if I ran into someone who was perfect and good at everything and brilliant and always kind and generous and never petty, I'd want to stab them in the face and I might not even be able to quantify why. I think they'd just annoy me on some fundamental level, out of some presumption that they couldn't possibly be the way the way they were pretending to be on the outside. I don't have a whole lot of stones to throw on that particular regard but I like to think there are some fundamental things about me that are obvious no matter what. The fact that I'm not perfect is probably high up on that list.
Maybe my worst character flaw is my ego. I'm told it stands in my way a lot. I don't know about that, I figure this ego is half of the reason I've gotten as far as I have in life. Maybe it stands in OTHER people's way, maybe they don't fuckin' like me too much because of it, but in the grand tradition of everyone whose self-estimation has been a little swollen out of proportion, I don't give a flying fuck about them. There's a fine line between ego and arrogance and being just that damn good, and now I'm going to give you a taste of either one or the other by intimating that I think in my case, it's actually the second. No, I'm serious. People with a big ego say that they're going to get this, that, or the other thing done. They say they save the world. People who are just that damn good mean it. So maybe I am both possessing of an ego that could push small children out of an empty room AND that damn good. Maybe it's a vicious cycle.
Maybe my worst character flaw is my libido. I'll be the first to admit that it can get a little out of control. Or a lot out of control, when 'out of control' is, I guess, the place wherein I sleep only with consenting adults, only when I've told them what the deal is, and only when using appropriate contraceptives. No, I don't ever trust the girl when she says she's on the pill, I wear a fucking condom (that's literal, kids, a condom for fucking). The last thing I need or want is some woman showing up a year later with a mini-Marty on her tit and a hand out for a big fat alimony check. Nobody, and I do mean nobody, really wants to see the result of me spawning with any of the beautiful creatures on this good green earth. Me as a Dad is a terminally bad idea.
Anyway, my libido. I'm careful in some respects but I have been known from time to time to let the wrong head do the thinking. Besides that, I guess nobody likes a man who's known to be a borderline womanizer, despite my protests that I have treated every single woman---well, almost every single woman--i have ever slept with like a lady. I am a gentleman, goddamnit, I'm not a bully and I'm not a rapist. You hear stories but mostly they're from people who made an entire scenario up in their heads to make it seem like they got close to what they think in stardom. I don't know WHY, but it happens all the time. I'm probably getting off topic again.
Suffice to say, I don't actually feel like I can say with authority I know what my worst flaw is. I like to think I have them all managed on some level or another. Maybe that says more damning about me than it does positive. Anyway, ask Alan. I'm sure he could come up with a laundry list for you of everything that's wrong with me.