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our lease is up in about 3 months. i keep joking about how eric will up and leave me when its up. Last night I asked him seriously if that's what he wanted to do. He says that lately he's been thinking more about being single and hes not sure he wants to live with me after this. I really thought this was all so perfect. I thought it was assumed we were going to find another place together. I told him that after living with him, I couldn't go back to living apart. Besides the fact that I have no one to live with here, so I would have to move back to philly where I have actual friends I love. I don't think his heart is really in this. I love him 20 times more than he loves me and its incredibly sad. I don't know how i'm supposed to enjoy these next three months knowing what i know. He says it's not definite. I know it is.