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in the past two weeks, I've had my Effexor dose cut from 300 to 150. All of a sudden, I'm feeling things. I didn't realize I wasn't until now. I was numb. There was a dull ache that told me I was unhappy with my life, unhappy in general, yet I just couldn't FEEL it. When I was angry, I couldn't truly feel fury. When I was sad, I wasn't devastated or even truly SAD. I could compare my feelings to a vast desert- wind occasionally blowing things around a bit, but nothing truly changing.
Now, all of a sudden, the past two years have come crashing down on me. I'm crying over everything. I want to play guitar again. I'm looking at schools to go back to.
I know I'm not out of the dark, not by far. But I'm actually SEEING the dark, instead of being engulfed by it, all of a sudden.
it's terrifying.
Now, all of a sudden, the past two years have come crashing down on me. I'm crying over everything. I want to play guitar again. I'm looking at schools to go back to.
I know I'm not out of the dark, not by far. But I'm actually SEEING the dark, instead of being engulfed by it, all of a sudden.
it's terrifying.