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You would not believe your eyes
If ten million fireflies
Lit up the world as I fell asleep
'Cause they'd fill the open air
And leave teardrops everywhere
You'd think me rude
But I would just stand and stare
I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
'Cause I'd get a thousand hugs
From ten thousand lightning bugs
As they tried to teach me how to dance
A fox trot above my head
A sock hop beneath my bed
A disco ball that's just hanging by a thread
I'd like to make myself believe
That planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep
Leave my door open just a crack
(Please take me away from here)
'Cause I feel like such an insomniac
(Please take me away from here)
Why do I tire of counting sheep
(Please take me away from here)
When I'm far too tired to fall asleep
To ten million fireflies
I'm weird 'cause I hate goodbyes
I got misty eyes as they said farewell
But I'll know where several are
If my dreams get real bizarre
'Cause I saved a few and I keep them in a jar
I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep
I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep
I'd like to make myself believe
That planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
Because my dreams are bursting at the seems
Things are really complicated right now.
I'm worried about Autumn. I'm worried about other friends. I'm worried about myself (that's a positive step, right? That at least I'm worried about myself? I think?)
I'm...
not doing well. I can admit that, at least.
Fight fight fight fight
Fail? No. I won't use those words, not right now at least. I can't afford to use words like fail right now, because if I use defeating words, I really will just crash. I have to at least tell myself I'm okay or FIGHTING to be okay, because if I don't it's just over.
In other news, I
A) love my roommate for being a sweetheart
B) Hurt from re arranging my desk and bed
C) Need to pay off stuff but am poor
D) Am anxious
E) Feel sick from a few bites of a snack and a cider.
F) Am nervous and apprehensive about hanging out with T and J this weekend, even though I love seeing them. Please let this weekend go well.
And oh yeah, I still think you and BSG are awesome, if you're stalking me/ and or reading this, S. =D