Torchwood: Children of Earth, Day Four (SPOILERS)
You evil, evil man, RTD! I'm in absolute floods of tears here. I know there were other things I was going to say about this episode, such as Lois and the sheer horror it was watching those people in government pick and choose...but all of it has been overshadowed by NO NOT IANTO!
And how much of a killer was Gwen's last line? Repeating what Jack said to her when Rhys died. That absolutely slayed me. And the difference in her character, the stillness and silence instead of her raging and hitting and screaming? Absolutely incredible. I've never loved Gwen more than when I was watching her walking between those bodies towards Jack and Ianto. Incredibly powerful, all of it.
But OMG Jack's face? And their last moments together...just wow. I want to make some remark about fanfic but I just can't. And I want to say WE'LL REMEMBER YOU IANTO! but the sad thing is in a few years this show will have run its course, or new characters will have moved in to take his place and we won't, not forever. Jack will, though. He will. I believe he carries everyone with him, just like the Doctor. And I've never been someone who believes in Jack/Ianto as true love forever and ever amen, but I'd like to think that Ianto was special, and he did leave his mark on Jack, and on all of us.
The one thing that really made my skin crawl though...was that the whole scene was being watched by the government, when Ianto said he loved him...all of it. Just...no. Fucking made me angry.
But the fact that Jack was willing to take it all back, suddenly, when he realized Ianto was dying...you don't need an I love you from Jack there. That was Jack saying he'd sacrifice all the world just to have Ianto back, and that says it all.
Now, if you'll excuse me, I'm going to go cry myself to sleep.
P.S. Please, please, PLEASE, don't spoiler me for Ep 5, not even to reassure me and tell me that he's coming back because I Don't Want To Know. I want to grieve for him tonight, and if something happens to change things tomorrow, then great. If not, okay. I'm going to try not to even visit torch_wood until after tommorrow's ep (hah, watch me try and fail to stay away! :P) so that I can't get spoilered that way. Actually, I'm gonna try not going on LJ at all. I'm that serious. Not sure how I'm going to manage it, seeing as I've spent over a week 24/7 on LJ talking to everyone, but after that, and since tommorrow might just be the last hour of TW ever, I'm not taking any chances.
And just to reply to a couple of comments already posted in one go so as not to keep saying it: I am NOT going to stop watching TW because of this. Obviously you have your own decision to make, and that's fine, but I'm going to carry on, if there's a S4, definitely. Anyway, 24 hours away from fandom is really going to hurt, especially with all the frantic speculation that I'm sure is going on right now that I do want to be a part of. I'll feel like I'm missing history, lol.
And how much of a killer was Gwen's last line? Repeating what Jack said to her when Rhys died. That absolutely slayed me. And the difference in her character, the stillness and silence instead of her raging and hitting and screaming? Absolutely incredible. I've never loved Gwen more than when I was watching her walking between those bodies towards Jack and Ianto. Incredibly powerful, all of it.
But OMG Jack's face? And their last moments together...just wow. I want to make some remark about fanfic but I just can't. And I want to say WE'LL REMEMBER YOU IANTO! but the sad thing is in a few years this show will have run its course, or new characters will have moved in to take his place and we won't, not forever. Jack will, though. He will. I believe he carries everyone with him, just like the Doctor. And I've never been someone who believes in Jack/Ianto as true love forever and ever amen, but I'd like to think that Ianto was special, and he did leave his mark on Jack, and on all of us.
The one thing that really made my skin crawl though...was that the whole scene was being watched by the government, when Ianto said he loved him...all of it. Just...no. Fucking made me angry.
But the fact that Jack was willing to take it all back, suddenly, when he realized Ianto was dying...you don't need an I love you from Jack there. That was Jack saying he'd sacrifice all the world just to have Ianto back, and that says it all.
Now, if you'll excuse me, I'm going to go cry myself to sleep.
P.S. Please, please, PLEASE, don't spoiler me for Ep 5, not even to reassure me and tell me that he's coming back because I Don't Want To Know. I want to grieve for him tonight, and if something happens to change things tomorrow, then great. If not, okay. I'm going to try not to even visit torch_wood until after tommorrow's ep (hah, watch me try and fail to stay away! :P) so that I can't get spoilered that way. Actually, I'm gonna try not going on LJ at all. I'm that serious. Not sure how I'm going to manage it, seeing as I've spent over a week 24/7 on LJ talking to everyone, but after that, and since tommorrow might just be the last hour of TW ever, I'm not taking any chances.
And just to reply to a couple of comments already posted in one go so as not to keep saying it: I am NOT going to stop watching TW because of this. Obviously you have your own decision to make, and that's fine, but I'm going to carry on, if there's a S4, definitely. Anyway, 24 hours away from fandom is really going to hurt, especially with all the frantic speculation that I'm sure is going on right now that I do want to be a part of. I'll feel like I'm missing history, lol.