happy =)
Well today has been pretty uneventful for the most part. About the only exciting thing that happened was that i got to talk to my carnie :D. i love you ;). some interesting conversations we had....we always seem to have interesting ones. the one about religion though....erf. i dont think that your parents are going to like me if they find out what i am d00der...especially not your mom. she seems a lot like my mom. my parents dont know what i am. no one in my family really does. just my friends do. i hope that if your mom finds out she doesnt like stop you from seeing me or something =(. i'm not doing anything wrong with the religion i chose. I dont understand why some people feel that you have to follow their religion or you're a horrible person and should be shot. oh well...i guess there will always be people like that. anyway....i think i want to read the Mists of Avalon. All of that stuff has been interesting me lately whenever i talk to you Christina....i'm not really sure why hehe. I suppose i feel that you and i belong somewhere else...or some time else. its strange how you and i are both into the same things. what i really dont understand is why we didnt get together before...why i didnt see you. i hate that i didnt just drop Amanda and go for you. such an awesome person right under my nose. i suppose not being able to have you right away is sort of my punishment for that...or perhaps its a test to see if we both have the love and devotion that we say we do? i really love you and i have no thoughts of doing anything to harm you or any thoughts of leaving you. i dont want to leave you...i want to spend a very long time wth you. i hope that you want the same. i still have those thoughts of the fireplace and movie almost every night ;). some nights i have thoughts of you being there with me in my bed. thoughts of how we would lay together if we were together. what side of the bed would you want. would you want to be really close and cuddle or would you want me to just put my arm around you as we slept or perhaps not really hold onto eachother at all but still be very near eachother. i suppose me thinking of those things is sort of strange...but then again maybe not.answer those questions in your e-mail to me ;). you better e-mail me or i'm going to have to fly up there and fwap you :D. i can't wait for Christmas...i'm glad that we talked about what we did today...that commitment that we discussed....make sure you are very ready when and if you decide to do that babe...i dont want any regrets afterwards...that always sucks hehe. i love you Christina, i can't wait to talk to you later. i should be home around 5 d00d. i only have one class tomorrow. argh there was something i was going to ask you but i forgot it as soon as i thought of it. damnit. thats going to bug the shit out of me now. oh well...i have to burn you some cds and get them sent to you. i feel bad that i haven't done that yet =( if you ever get tired of me or sick of me or feel you need a break from me i want you to say so. i dont want to find out by having you just all of a sudden you not talking to me. tell me if you need a break or want to stop. I love you Christina, i want you to be happy. you give me so much happiness....its a strange thing. but a very good thing =). i hope that you slept well and that you had wonderful dreams. OH i remembered what i was going to babble about! what do you think of that language thing? it probably seemed very nerdy and what not. David and i have always wanted a language of our own so we could talk around other people and get strange looks ;). I think i want to continue working on it but i dunno...i hope i didnt weird you out with it. well i think i'm going to try and get some sleep now. this lack of sleep is starting to catch up to me i think. I love you beautiful, i'll talk to you when i get home babay.