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So I haven't updated in a really really long time. I'm not entirely sure why this is. Not much has been happening (although at the same time, tons of stuff has been happening? which I know doesn't make much sense in words, but makes sense in my head). I used to want to write all the time, in this journal and in my personal journal, but I just haven't been up for it lately. Like the past six months lately. Which makes me really sad. I'm also terrible at forcing myself to write when I don't want to, I feel like when I'm not in the mood I just list things that are blah and then I feel worse. But, today I decided it was time for an update. So here it goes!
I desperately need to work on my resume to get a summer job. I found my dream job, I'm not going to talk too much about it because I don't want to jinx anything. If this doesn't work out I'm not sure what I'm going to do. I NEED to work and make money this summer, it's not a want anymore. I found this resume maker thing on my computer which is really helpful. I have most of it done except the artist statement, which I'm really struggling with. I've never really thought about my work and why I'm a photographer, and it's a lot more complicated then I thought. I also realize that I don't have any skills besides "crafting" to put on (besides photography of course but the majority of my resume is about my photography)
The apartment search is pretty much over, we found a place. Ellesse and I are really excited about it. It's cute; it's in the building that Whitney currently lives in. We're going to be on the same floor in the same building, so that's exciting. Sadly though, Whitney won't be there anymore :-(. I'm really lucky because most everything in the apartment will be Ellesse's. I need to come up with the deposit sometime this week, which I don't know how I'm going to do. I will also need to come up with last months rent by July, which I also don't know how I'm going to do it. And then I need to figure out first months rent. Triple sigh. I'm really not looking forward to moving all of my shit out of my current room (Jose is coming to help me the weekend before finals though so that will be good) and then moving everything back up here to the apartment. I seriously think I'm going to look into renting a moving truck instead of doing multiple trips. It baffles me how I have so much shit. And the worst part is I use most of my stuff. I just have a lot of it. A lot of it has to do with crafting, which takes up a lot of room. I also have things like my day lab and typewriter that all have a special case so it takes up more room. I have to start figuring this out and packing because it's going to be such a bitch to move out, even with Jose's help.
I'm doing laundry now. I also need to start/complete an annotative bibliography by tomorrow, which I've never done before. I've gotten most of my articles (I think) and just have to write about them. I'm not entirely sure what my topic is though so that's going to be a little challenging. I also need to talk to my dad about apartment stuff. And I need to facebook people for models for my final for documentary. Like my independent study this semester (which I also need to complete), I'm taking portraits of people, but not through their faces. Through their shoes and feet. I feel like feet make people uncomfortable and I really am enjoying portraits that aren't standard. I think shoes show so much personality as well, so this will be interesting. I just have to get started and really get working on everything. I need to figure out how I'm going to pay the darkroom for all the printing I've been doing all semester. And I also need to finish that resume asap. So much to do! And yet I'm so unmotivated. I seriously need to just make myself do stuff, but I'm terrible at that.
I think I'm going to make a giant to do list and start getting stuff done. I'll probably go down to the study because I find I can't do work very well in my room, which kind of sucks. Even though a lot of the time I bring my computer down to the study with me, I find I use facebook and the internet so much less then I do in my room. It's like down in the study I have to get work done, whereas I can't make myself do it in my room.
Ugh I forgot I have a lot of presents that I need to make/buy, like soon. I need more money and it fucking sucks. I hate being broke all the time. I will put all of that stuff on my to do list so I can hopefully get a little organized about everything. Organization is key.
Alright well I guess that's all for now. I'll try to be better about updating and make a better effort at it.
I desperately need to work on my resume to get a summer job. I found my dream job, I'm not going to talk too much about it because I don't want to jinx anything. If this doesn't work out I'm not sure what I'm going to do. I NEED to work and make money this summer, it's not a want anymore. I found this resume maker thing on my computer which is really helpful. I have most of it done except the artist statement, which I'm really struggling with. I've never really thought about my work and why I'm a photographer, and it's a lot more complicated then I thought. I also realize that I don't have any skills besides "crafting" to put on (besides photography of course but the majority of my resume is about my photography)
The apartment search is pretty much over, we found a place. Ellesse and I are really excited about it. It's cute; it's in the building that Whitney currently lives in. We're going to be on the same floor in the same building, so that's exciting. Sadly though, Whitney won't be there anymore :-(. I'm really lucky because most everything in the apartment will be Ellesse's. I need to come up with the deposit sometime this week, which I don't know how I'm going to do. I will also need to come up with last months rent by July, which I also don't know how I'm going to do it. And then I need to figure out first months rent. Triple sigh. I'm really not looking forward to moving all of my shit out of my current room (Jose is coming to help me the weekend before finals though so that will be good) and then moving everything back up here to the apartment. I seriously think I'm going to look into renting a moving truck instead of doing multiple trips. It baffles me how I have so much shit. And the worst part is I use most of my stuff. I just have a lot of it. A lot of it has to do with crafting, which takes up a lot of room. I also have things like my day lab and typewriter that all have a special case so it takes up more room. I have to start figuring this out and packing because it's going to be such a bitch to move out, even with Jose's help.
I'm doing laundry now. I also need to start/complete an annotative bibliography by tomorrow, which I've never done before. I've gotten most of my articles (I think) and just have to write about them. I'm not entirely sure what my topic is though so that's going to be a little challenging. I also need to talk to my dad about apartment stuff. And I need to facebook people for models for my final for documentary. Like my independent study this semester (which I also need to complete), I'm taking portraits of people, but not through their faces. Through their shoes and feet. I feel like feet make people uncomfortable and I really am enjoying portraits that aren't standard. I think shoes show so much personality as well, so this will be interesting. I just have to get started and really get working on everything. I need to figure out how I'm going to pay the darkroom for all the printing I've been doing all semester. And I also need to finish that resume asap. So much to do! And yet I'm so unmotivated. I seriously need to just make myself do stuff, but I'm terrible at that.
I think I'm going to make a giant to do list and start getting stuff done. I'll probably go down to the study because I find I can't do work very well in my room, which kind of sucks. Even though a lot of the time I bring my computer down to the study with me, I find I use facebook and the internet so much less then I do in my room. It's like down in the study I have to get work done, whereas I can't make myself do it in my room.
Ugh I forgot I have a lot of presents that I need to make/buy, like soon. I need more money and it fucking sucks. I hate being broke all the time. I will put all of that stuff on my to do list so I can hopefully get a little organized about everything. Organization is key.
Alright well I guess that's all for now. I'll try to be better about updating and make a better effort at it.