weird...
There's a lot of things people don't tell you about the chemo.
Yeah, you know the hallmark one, it's all prominent cheekbones and heaving breasts and soppy music. They don't tell you the other stuff. the TMI stuff, like thrush or throwing up all over yourself, the bed and your book, or when you warn the docs trying to do a CT that they need to hurry with what they're doing because you're about to shit yourself and vomit simultaneously from the pain (fortunately I passed out before that happened) or all those other horribly unromantic moments :P
And then there's the other stuff they don't tell you about Like waking up randomly at 3am, staring at the TV, paranoid and convinced you're dying. Or you can't breathe. Or getting weirdly emotional. It's crazy, crazy shit. Then there's also that weird bug-eyed vision thing you get, and your body trying to send you wrong signals because it knows shit is sideways, but can't process it. Like OMG GONNA FAINT YOU ARE WEAK...but then you pick up something and go...no you're not.
But the feeling persists.
cray cray *shakes head*
In other news, I was trolling VNV Melbourne on youtube and DUDE. YOU CAN SEE TORASIN AND I. BOTH OF US. IN STANDING AND DARKANGEL (2008). VERY VERY CLEARLY, not "Oh HAIIII we were there!". Of course you have to know us to spot us, but we are youtubed.
I feel so swanky. I'm on wiki and on youtube, I'm a goddamn internet sensation. Hand me my hat.
Reformation:1 LIVECONCERT rocks btw. Can't wait to drag sacred_chao to the next concert.
Yeah, you know the hallmark one, it's all prominent cheekbones and heaving breasts and soppy music. They don't tell you the other stuff. the TMI stuff, like thrush or throwing up all over yourself, the bed and your book, or when you warn the docs trying to do a CT that they need to hurry with what they're doing because you're about to shit yourself and vomit simultaneously from the pain (fortunately I passed out before that happened) or all those other horribly unromantic moments :P
And then there's the other stuff they don't tell you about Like waking up randomly at 3am, staring at the TV, paranoid and convinced you're dying. Or you can't breathe. Or getting weirdly emotional. It's crazy, crazy shit. Then there's also that weird bug-eyed vision thing you get, and your body trying to send you wrong signals because it knows shit is sideways, but can't process it. Like OMG GONNA FAINT YOU ARE WEAK...but then you pick up something and go...no you're not.
But the feeling persists.
cray cray *shakes head*
In other news, I was trolling VNV Melbourne on youtube and DUDE. YOU CAN SEE TORASIN AND I. BOTH OF US. IN STANDING AND DARKANGEL (2008). VERY VERY CLEARLY, not "Oh HAIIII we were there!". Of course you have to know us to spot us, but we are youtubed.
I feel so swanky. I'm on wiki and on youtube, I'm a goddamn internet sensation. Hand me my hat.
Reformation:1 LIVECONCERT rocks btw. Can't wait to drag sacred_chao to the next concert.