Bills bills and oh look, no money
I've been in a horrible mood since I woke up today and I couldn't understand why.
Not even another job interview appointment being set (receptionist/secretary position in a law firm) could lift my mood up enough. So I hide from everyone and randomly bitched about random things on fb and twitter.
Well, the understanding as to why I've been in such a shit mood all day today kicked in just now that I checked my bank account again.
If I don't get this secretary job, or any other job within the next month, I'm gonna be FUCKED. How much do you wanna bet my mom is gonna kick me out of this house the minute I don't have money to give her anymore? My leftover Japan loan money is GONE. The same money I was hoping to use for school this semester since I have to pay out-of-state tuition will be completely gone before I even have time to enroll in class. But does my mom understand? No. She doesn't see that I've gone to 7 interviews and come home empty handed. I'm fairly certain she'll kick me out as soon as I'm not useful to her anymore. Oh and of course, I can't help thinking that if only my father hadn't fucked himself up, I'd be on the college path I'd written out for myself. FIU (Miami) after the study abroad. Majoring in Education, minoring in Asian studies with a focus on Japan. Not having to worry about out-of-state-tuition. Just working on my degree so I can get out of here indefinitely. But no. Now I just have people telling me to stop whining and to DO something about my problems.
What more should I do?! Someone enlighten me. Cause I thought filling out job apps, sending out my resume on a daily basis was me doing something.
I don't have ANYONE I can financially rely on. No one to help bail me out, but myself. I'm the one that bails everyone else out with no support back (family-wise). If I can't get shit done myself, wtf do I do? I can only sit here and cry while continuing to search and cross my fingers my mom doesn't again prove to be a cold-hearted bitch. She's kicked me out before...
In other news, I dyed my hair since a secretary position, at a law firm no less, most likely wouldn't be keen on bright pink hair. What a waste of money. The brown dye turned the pink an auburny red color. Hopefully that's enough though, that it won't be an issue cause I sure as hell don't have money to spend on another box. I already have to use 2 for all the damn hair I have.
Not even another job interview appointment being set (receptionist/secretary position in a law firm) could lift my mood up enough. So I hide from everyone and randomly bitched about random things on fb and twitter.
Well, the understanding as to why I've been in such a shit mood all day today kicked in just now that I checked my bank account again.
If I don't get this secretary job, or any other job within the next month, I'm gonna be FUCKED. How much do you wanna bet my mom is gonna kick me out of this house the minute I don't have money to give her anymore? My leftover Japan loan money is GONE. The same money I was hoping to use for school this semester since I have to pay out-of-state tuition will be completely gone before I even have time to enroll in class. But does my mom understand? No. She doesn't see that I've gone to 7 interviews and come home empty handed. I'm fairly certain she'll kick me out as soon as I'm not useful to her anymore. Oh and of course, I can't help thinking that if only my father hadn't fucked himself up, I'd be on the college path I'd written out for myself. FIU (Miami) after the study abroad. Majoring in Education, minoring in Asian studies with a focus on Japan. Not having to worry about out-of-state-tuition. Just working on my degree so I can get out of here indefinitely. But no. Now I just have people telling me to stop whining and to DO something about my problems.
What more should I do?! Someone enlighten me. Cause I thought filling out job apps, sending out my resume on a daily basis was me doing something.
I don't have ANYONE I can financially rely on. No one to help bail me out, but myself. I'm the one that bails everyone else out with no support back (family-wise). If I can't get shit done myself, wtf do I do? I can only sit here and cry while continuing to search and cross my fingers my mom doesn't again prove to be a cold-hearted bitch. She's kicked me out before...
In other news, I dyed my hair since a secretary position, at a law firm no less, most likely wouldn't be keen on bright pink hair. What a waste of money. The brown dye turned the pink an auburny red color. Hopefully that's enough though, that it won't be an issue cause I sure as hell don't have money to spend on another box. I already have to use 2 for all the damn hair I have.