Anyone have the gift of an euthenizer to bless me with?
I knew it was coming...I knew it was to be expected...but when you're losing someone you trust more than just about anyone else... Pain and Anger, confused and filled with resentment... It really does feel like my heart is torn open and bleeding...bleeding into everything else...This nausea will not go away...it seems that if my bile were to rise, it would be the color of blood...
Damnit I hate poeple!!! Or perhaps it's more myself...for allowing myself to get so close and so attached. This is the way it always occurs... I'm really not sure the pain is worth the comfort while it's there...the pain lasts so much longer and overrides any comfort...
And now I'm off to find some way to drown away my pain....
Damnit I hate poeple!!! Or perhaps it's more myself...for allowing myself to get so close and so attached. This is the way it always occurs... I'm really not sure the pain is worth the comfort while it's there...the pain lasts so much longer and overrides any comfort...
And now I'm off to find some way to drown away my pain....