REALITY CHECK 1.0
This is the first of many reality checks where i just ramble about random shit i'm thinking about. If ya don't understand it. You're not meant to. Otay. The Divine Mrs. M I'm falling in love with her more and more everyday. (Dear God, Please help me figure this one out). I think its safe to say I love her more than I've loved anyone before. The song at the end of this probably is the most accurate song as to how I feel about her. I'm confused and disassociated with myself. I don't feel like myself. Now James. Can I say one of the most awesome people i've ever met in my life. He has an uncanny way of being right about all things. Cept when is comes to himself but isn't that why he has me and the Divine Mrs. M? So my subconcious finally released itself and i found out something that happened to me a while ago and i had just repressed it. I'm starting the process to deal with it and i'm feeling better about myself. Shanna and I are on speaking terms again. That makes me happy because after you've been friends with someone for so long its hard to let them go without a fight. Amanda. Gosh I love that girl. I'm so glad I met her. Every time i see her she brings joy to my life. Sorry i don't get to see you much girl. My Kimmie. She's all the way up in New York. I miss her so much. Wish she would come home already. So newayz that about wraps up my first REALITY CHECK. But first here's my song for the day.
One more kiss could be the best thing. One more lie could be the worst
And all these thoughts are never resting and you're not something I deserve in my head there's only you now. And this world falls on me in this world there's real and make believe and this seems real to me
And you love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
You love me but you don't know who I am.
So let me go let me go.
I dream ahead to what I hope for and I turn my back on loving you how can this love be a good thing and I know what I'm going through in my head
There's only you now and this world falls on me in this world there's real and make believe and this seems real to me and you love me but you dont' know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
You love me but you don't know who I am so let me go let me go
No matter how hard I try I can't escape these things inside I know I know when all the pieces fall apart you will be the only one who knows who knows and you love me but you don't know ho I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and Where I stand
You love me but you dont' know who I am so let me go Let me go
Peace and Love to all those who deserve it...and to those that don't I still hope they find you.
One more kiss could be the best thing. One more lie could be the worst
And all these thoughts are never resting and you're not something I deserve in my head there's only you now. And this world falls on me in this world there's real and make believe and this seems real to me
And you love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
You love me but you don't know who I am.
So let me go let me go.
I dream ahead to what I hope for and I turn my back on loving you how can this love be a good thing and I know what I'm going through in my head
There's only you now and this world falls on me in this world there's real and make believe and this seems real to me and you love me but you dont' know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
You love me but you don't know who I am so let me go let me go
No matter how hard I try I can't escape these things inside I know I know when all the pieces fall apart you will be the only one who knows who knows and you love me but you don't know ho I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and Where I stand
You love me but you dont' know who I am so let me go Let me go
Peace and Love to all those who deserve it...and to those that don't I still hope they find you.