Life Update
Today instead of dwelling on the past i'm simply going to document my epiphone's i've recently viewed. The subject of this entry is Life Update. It is that and that alone. For the longest time i've wanted to view things in life from a negative stand point. Everything going wrong in my life and all the hardships i was going through. I never took the time to view all i had acomplished and where i was going in life. At 19 years old I never thought I would be able to say i had an apartment and bills all my own (with the assistance of a room mate of course) but to myself none the less. Most 19 year olds spend all their time partying and doing all kinds of madness. Not me. I've done my share of craziness don't get me wrong but for the most part i'm a very put together guy. I lived with my mom and step-dad who wouldn't accept my lifestyle. I listened day in and day out at them bashing my dad and sister for choosing their lifestyle. They never stopped to look at the accomplishments they had formulated for no one other than themselves. To make their quality of life better. My dad changed jobs and got a position as a liquor distributor and bought a house in a ritzy ass neighborhood. My sister is high ranking military personel. She moved down to Columbia to better her life and get away from the negativity that surrounded her life. I dealt with my demons at home. I went through the biggest up and down roller coaster ride of my life and came out on top. I have held a steady job, two for the past month, continued to pull out strong and on top even though financially i have been tapped for a while. I was tired of working for a company who didn't give two shits whether i was there or not. I got another job that i'm doing extremely well at. Never have i found a job where everyone i worked with pretty much loved me the minute i started working there. I dont' have a single problem with anyone i work with and most say i bring joy to the workplace and they're glad to have me.
I've also learned that in making these changes others will follow. Unfortuanly friends must be put to the side somewhat in order for me to do what i need to do. If time permits i enjoy time with friends but if not its not a big deal because i'm making myself happy. i can honestly say in most of my life i've never been a terribly selfish person. If anyone needs me i'm there for them at the turn of a dime. Friends have coined the term "Momma Drew" when refering to me. I'm not exactly sure what they mean by that but i take it as a compliment. I am like a momma to some degree. most people turn to me for help in a situation. i am proud to know that my words and comfort mean that much to anyone else. My roomie has someone new in his life, however i don't think its serious or anything but he does have someone to enjoy his company at night, no they're not doing it you nasty perves, hehe, but i'm very happy he's found someone to be that close to.
I look at my life now and see how its changed and how i've grown as a person and there is nothing bad that has happened. Everything i've been through has taught me a valuable life lesson and nothing is more precious than that. All the wrongs i may or may not have committed have all gone away and i am simply me. Nothing more nothing less and if you expect what isn't there you're not going to get it. i am no longer putting my all into every situation i come accross. i will still be there how i need to be but no longer will i put myself in the middle of things i have no business being in. i will stand strong and tall on my own two feet with no one's help because I am the epitome of me. I am beautiful inside and out and one day the special someone who is to be apart of my life forever will notice that. i will move on and be happy whether everyone else is or not won't matter sadly because I will be happy and no matter what in life YOU HAVE TO MAKE YOURSELF HAPPY~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!
I've also learned that in making these changes others will follow. Unfortuanly friends must be put to the side somewhat in order for me to do what i need to do. If time permits i enjoy time with friends but if not its not a big deal because i'm making myself happy. i can honestly say in most of my life i've never been a terribly selfish person. If anyone needs me i'm there for them at the turn of a dime. Friends have coined the term "Momma Drew" when refering to me. I'm not exactly sure what they mean by that but i take it as a compliment. I am like a momma to some degree. most people turn to me for help in a situation. i am proud to know that my words and comfort mean that much to anyone else. My roomie has someone new in his life, however i don't think its serious or anything but he does have someone to enjoy his company at night, no they're not doing it you nasty perves, hehe, but i'm very happy he's found someone to be that close to.
I look at my life now and see how its changed and how i've grown as a person and there is nothing bad that has happened. Everything i've been through has taught me a valuable life lesson and nothing is more precious than that. All the wrongs i may or may not have committed have all gone away and i am simply me. Nothing more nothing less and if you expect what isn't there you're not going to get it. i am no longer putting my all into every situation i come accross. i will still be there how i need to be but no longer will i put myself in the middle of things i have no business being in. i will stand strong and tall on my own two feet with no one's help because I am the epitome of me. I am beautiful inside and out and one day the special someone who is to be apart of my life forever will notice that. i will move on and be happy whether everyone else is or not won't matter sadly because I will be happy and no matter what in life YOU HAVE TO MAKE YOURSELF HAPPY~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!