Yeah it's the season or something like it
Today was just another day with a hint of hope that something good will happen shadowed with a touch of anxiety. I took care of some business today that helps me feel better but in order to do that I was countered with negativity. I try to take each day as it comes now but when you see someone who has nothing nice to say not even "hi how was your day , how have you been" it just doesn’t make anything better. If you have nothing nice to say at this point than say nothing at all. I think enough damage has been done and complaining about petty gossip will get you nowhere. Wishful thinking that attitudes will change and prayers for those faced with unrest. Time spent with Tommy after work. x-mas shopping is halfway done. Thinking of making a kind gesture for some one special but I’m not sure what to do with it yet. Maybe I’ll write them a poem, that would be very "me" I think. Main focus of today: taking care of business and practicing good kinship. I’m focusing on being centered and harnessing the energy within myself to not give in to the depression. Old memories are haunting me and keeping me from sleep so last night I started new methods of relaxing and meditation to help me sleep well and harness my lucid dreams. Thinking of everyone I care about this season even the ones who are not on my good list I send love out to you today.