Gut Feeling
I am in a bind. I have a choice to make that is going to effect the next few months or even years of my life. Last time I had to make the same choice, I had almost a year to think about it.
This time I have eight days...
I am in a bit of a panic. Because of Grant leaving, Steve not finding a job and getting pulled home, and Joe not paying rent, I am being pulled out of the apartment we had rented. Then I find out there was almost a $3000 lease cancel payment. After losing that money and having my friends bail on me, I was offered to come home by my parents. I dont have a place to live... and with them gone I lose most of the people I hang out with down here. The school isn't what I want it to be most of the time. Its nothing worth being 8 hours away from home and friends for anyway.
I see an opening here though. I don't know after going into Graphic Design that it is what I want to do with the rest of my life. The thought of teaching snaps into my head again. I have always wanted to be an art teacher, but they make little to no money in the long run. I wanted a job that would make me more money, so I figured GDA would be good for me. Although fun... just not really what I WANT to do, I could deal with it though. My head tells me to get out of here... I feel like I am going nowhere. Classes are so easy and boring I find myself missing days and still getting 90s on tests. It just feels.. easy and fake.
I would rather be at ISU or somewhere not so far. That way I could still come home and it not be a major deal.
BUT... I don't get the money I gave to school back...
I lose $8,000...
So fuck, its either I stay down in this fake bullshit school... or lose $8,000. I guess for that much money I could live it out and just get finished and hope this school is even good enough to get me a decent job. Or I could say fuck it and see what happens with ISU or something closer and become the teacher I always wanted to be...
I am torn. If I didn't lose $8,000... no way would I stay here.
Fuck...
This time I have eight days...
I am in a bit of a panic. Because of Grant leaving, Steve not finding a job and getting pulled home, and Joe not paying rent, I am being pulled out of the apartment we had rented. Then I find out there was almost a $3000 lease cancel payment. After losing that money and having my friends bail on me, I was offered to come home by my parents. I dont have a place to live... and with them gone I lose most of the people I hang out with down here. The school isn't what I want it to be most of the time. Its nothing worth being 8 hours away from home and friends for anyway.
I see an opening here though. I don't know after going into Graphic Design that it is what I want to do with the rest of my life. The thought of teaching snaps into my head again. I have always wanted to be an art teacher, but they make little to no money in the long run. I wanted a job that would make me more money, so I figured GDA would be good for me. Although fun... just not really what I WANT to do, I could deal with it though. My head tells me to get out of here... I feel like I am going nowhere. Classes are so easy and boring I find myself missing days and still getting 90s on tests. It just feels.. easy and fake.
I would rather be at ISU or somewhere not so far. That way I could still come home and it not be a major deal.
BUT... I don't get the money I gave to school back...
I lose $8,000...
So fuck, its either I stay down in this fake bullshit school... or lose $8,000. I guess for that much money I could live it out and just get finished and hope this school is even good enough to get me a decent job. Or I could say fuck it and see what happens with ISU or something closer and become the teacher I always wanted to be...
I am torn. If I didn't lose $8,000... no way would I stay here.
Fuck...