My World: Eyes Wide Apart
I'm trying to edit my writing, but I hate editing my own work. Need more people I can talk about games with. Instead, I'm fucking around with photoshop. So instead I'm going to write about something I deal with, and it's going to sound emo. You can play some Linkin Park behind it if you want, though I prefer Vangelis.
I want to show people what the world looks like through my eyes. Not my point of view, I mean. I guess anything I come up with is my point of view. What I'm trying to say is, my eyes are weird. I have strabismus. I'm trying to see a doctor, but I lost my medical insurance info and they're taking forever to send it back to me. I don't know if my glasses work. I mean, I can focus, but my left eye is noticeably worse than the right. My vision splits all the time.
Without being able to animate it, it's hard to explain. You know when someone's dizzy in a cartoon, and you see the double vision? It's like that, except only one side is rotating. I've had it for about as long as I can remember, but when I lost my glasses on the way to see Coraline and the subsequent weeks after that, it got much worse, I think. Am I more aware of it? Maybe. It's very frustrating. I'm extremely cognizant of the difference between my eyes, now. Did I use that word correctly? Next, I'll use the word "myriad" in a sentence. Or not.
I've actually moved the couch closer to the television so that I can see the text when I'm playing. I feel like it wasn't always like this.
I just want my old glasses back and I want to see normally again. You can search on youtube, and see many people with it, doctors talking about it. No one's tried to make a video of what it looks like.
It makes it hard to sit and write for a long period of time. The brightness of the montior, especially at work where all the lights around me are broken (yes, I've requested it be fixed, but I don't have time to babysit my boss and make sure he puts in the request). Usually, blinking resets my eyes. I've also taken to tapping the side of my head, like I'm hitting a button.
Reading is really the worst of it. I can usually concentrate on images, especially moving ones. Why do you think I like games so much? With that said, my motion vision isn't very good. Don't throw balls at me. Slam Dunk can stay on the screen, where I don't have to look like an ass that can barely catch a ball. If something fast is moving, I have to make a quick assumption of what it is, because I usually can't see it. Is it buzzing? It's probably a bee, so I'm moving away. I'll wait until the ball bounces before trying to catch it. I like watching tennis because the court has enough contrast that you can see the ball clearly when it's moving. I don't like complicated patterns. Chain link fences, screens, that kind of thing, they make my eyes bug out.
So, what do I want out of life? I want my eyes to work, and I want a job at Game Informer. Give me those, and you'll hardly find me wanting. Gadget and game lust exempt.
I want to show people what the world looks like through my eyes. Not my point of view, I mean. I guess anything I come up with is my point of view. What I'm trying to say is, my eyes are weird. I have strabismus. I'm trying to see a doctor, but I lost my medical insurance info and they're taking forever to send it back to me. I don't know if my glasses work. I mean, I can focus, but my left eye is noticeably worse than the right. My vision splits all the time.
Without being able to animate it, it's hard to explain. You know when someone's dizzy in a cartoon, and you see the double vision? It's like that, except only one side is rotating. I've had it for about as long as I can remember, but when I lost my glasses on the way to see Coraline and the subsequent weeks after that, it got much worse, I think. Am I more aware of it? Maybe. It's very frustrating. I'm extremely cognizant of the difference between my eyes, now. Did I use that word correctly? Next, I'll use the word "myriad" in a sentence. Or not.
I've actually moved the couch closer to the television so that I can see the text when I'm playing. I feel like it wasn't always like this.
I just want my old glasses back and I want to see normally again. You can search on youtube, and see many people with it, doctors talking about it. No one's tried to make a video of what it looks like.
It makes it hard to sit and write for a long period of time. The brightness of the montior, especially at work where all the lights around me are broken (yes, I've requested it be fixed, but I don't have time to babysit my boss and make sure he puts in the request). Usually, blinking resets my eyes. I've also taken to tapping the side of my head, like I'm hitting a button.
Reading is really the worst of it. I can usually concentrate on images, especially moving ones. Why do you think I like games so much? With that said, my motion vision isn't very good. Don't throw balls at me. Slam Dunk can stay on the screen, where I don't have to look like an ass that can barely catch a ball. If something fast is moving, I have to make a quick assumption of what it is, because I usually can't see it. Is it buzzing? It's probably a bee, so I'm moving away. I'll wait until the ball bounces before trying to catch it. I like watching tennis because the court has enough contrast that you can see the ball clearly when it's moving. I don't like complicated patterns. Chain link fences, screens, that kind of thing, they make my eyes bug out.
So, what do I want out of life? I want my eyes to work, and I want a job at Game Informer. Give me those, and you'll hardly find me wanting. Gadget and game lust exempt.