Why...?
Kind of an update if you guys don't already know.
I blew a hole in my lung a few days ago after coughing for two years. Hospital, 1/3 collapsed, the whole works. So I now have a tube sticking out of my chest that should be removed today. Key word is should. Gotta say, it really sucks having this because that tube likes to poke around in my chest cavity and moving my right arm hurts.
But...that's not the main reason for this.
The main reason for this is that an old friend of mine died in a car crash on Tuesday night. Now...that might be devastating enough, but he managed to tell the paramedics that he did it on purpose. Suicide. Before I found that out I couldn't find the tears to cry. Now I can. Now it can actually hit me hard enough that I will break out sobbing. Suicide.
Suicide.
Why...?
I blew a hole in my lung a few days ago after coughing for two years. Hospital, 1/3 collapsed, the whole works. So I now have a tube sticking out of my chest that should be removed today. Key word is should. Gotta say, it really sucks having this because that tube likes to poke around in my chest cavity and moving my right arm hurts.
But...that's not the main reason for this.
The main reason for this is that an old friend of mine died in a car crash on Tuesday night. Now...that might be devastating enough, but he managed to tell the paramedics that he did it on purpose. Suicide. Before I found that out I couldn't find the tears to cry. Now I can. Now it can actually hit me hard enough that I will break out sobbing. Suicide.
Suicide.
Why...?