ya know what? FUCK YOU! and FUCK YOU TOO....just about all of you...FUCK YOU...i guess the only truly happy people in life are the fucking whores...because nice guys ALWAYS FUCKING FINISH LAST...all the fucking time...its always the lesbians (no offense to those who are) and the grungy punks who are happiest in life....and ya know what FUCK YOU! I'
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Fine you don't wanna work shit out with me to were we can still be friends, fine, but you fucking know what. I feel sorry for you. I'll move on. I'll find someone else. I'll be all right, because I will know that I tried. That I did everything I could. But someday you will look back, and you will realize what you threw away. And you will regret it always. You'll always think "what if?" Yeah, I've tried my damnest to work shit out with you because I really want to. You're an awesome guy and I'd kill to have you as a friend. You seem think think I'm playing games with you on this, but I'm not.
Aaron, I've been pretty fucking confused lately and doing EVERYTHING possible to stay FUCKED UP (like on any drug I can find), so I don't word shit right. I told you this on AIM when I worded things wrong, I'm not being two-faced, but just fucked up how I say things.
Ya wanna know how I feel I FUCKING LOVE YOU but you don't love me, which is ok. I'm over that now. I just want to work stuff out so we can still be friends and hang out without it being awkard.
I fucked everything up a drama and one day when I get over this happiess shit I'll realize what a complete ass I was to you. It'll probably hit me the hardest when I see you with someone else, but I WANT you to find someone for you, a guy like you will find some really awesome chick to make you happy. When I see it everything hit me and then when I see you smile everything will be ok because I'll know you're happy
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Another was because I want you to say all this stuff to me, face to face, so I can defend myself and not have to write it on LiveJournal. I don't care that I have to, but saying things face to face is much simplier.
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I don't love you? BULL SHIT...I don't love your mother and that's who you were for a month...do you know how hard it has been for me to even look at you since you became you again? no I think not
but i'm ok now...I have people that I am talking to to help me get over this shit...it'll all work out...and you will be happy...so it's all good...im just tire of hearing all this shit from people telling me that they just talked to you and you said that it was all my problems...well yeah I guess it was, I HATE YOUR MOTHER...and you were being her and trying to make me your Jerry....oh...what's this I heard that one of the reasons you are happy it's over is so that you won't have to worry about me cheating on you with brigit, since I was ALWAYS with her? I don't really think you said this...and I hoooope to fucking god that you didn't because I DON'T CHEAT....but I need to know....anyways...I need to go to bed
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It's good you are ok now and that you have people talking to you, and I'm really sorry that I wasn't communicating during that last month, and I guess I figure by doing it now will somewhat fix the damage I have done.
I realized I was acting like her, but I don't anymore, and you know this. I do know how hard it is to look at me considering I have to look at you and see that I royally fucked up and ended the only thing that truly made me happy, so I DO understand.
I still find it hard to talk to you face to face because I'm always at a loss for words, it's so different now that we aren't dating, it's so weird that I can't do the things that I was so accustomed to, but it's ok, it really is. I just want to get to the point where nothing is awkward and we can hang out and be friends. Well that and for you to be happy, that's more important (or so I think).
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