-.-....im a fucking looser
im confused....and i dont like it...i will be better when i talk to her next...but i cant call her at this hour...o.o...i love her soo soooo fucking much its not even funny....and i get sooooo damn jealous....when other people are OBVIOUSLY hitting on her...well in my eyes.....im such a loser...shoot me now and get it over with...send me to death for it is what i guess i deserve...*sigh*...i wish she would stop hating herself...and stop apologizing for hating herself...and apologizing for everything...especially since she has never done anything wrong...-.-....i wish she could be happy...truly happy with EVERYTHING for at least one min....if i had to give EVERYTHING....i would...i really would...if she truly was Happy...like she says she is...she wouldnt be stressing over having "lustful" feelings towards other people...that she says she ignores....she says she is 90% gay and 10% straight...yet she's dating me....how does that work?....o.o....i dont think im that feminine...lol....-.-...ionno...i love her...and i want her to be happy....no matter what the cost...o.o....i love her sooo much....i just wish she...or anybody could know how much i really doooo love her....its crazeh...but i've bitched enough...the sooner i sleep the sooner i can get up and call her in the morning...o.o...i love her...sooo damn much....bye