I should have known better to keep it inside.

[takingoveryou]

The worst day ever.
I exploded, I let it all out, I explained everything, and everyone that was bothering me.
I was bothered. I was stressed, I felt like a block of cement, just coulden't move, coulden't speek, coulden't solve anything.

Now he won't talk to me.
he doesen't feel comfortable talking to me right now.
I pleaded for him not to hang up, to talk it out now, don't play this waiting game i so horribly HATE.
Now I'm waiting...Now I'm shaking...Now I'm crying.
I feel sick to my stomach, I feel like vommiting.
I feel like vomit.

Friendships, and relationships go through alot of good things, and bad things.
Getting over them, talking about it, is what makes these relationships stronger, or fall apart all together.
Right now there's alot of talking and venting, and crying to be done, and I can't do niether right now.

I can't because I have to wait...

I have to wait, for a piece of mind.
I have to wait to be more upset
I have to wait to say its okay, when it isn't.
I have to wait

WAIT

Wait...

I haven't been this upset in a very long time, I don't remember what to do to keep myself calm.

I don't remember how to dissappear.

edit: I don't hate anyone, I just hate drama, I just hate knowing it will never go away.
I just hate life's complex.