there is so much of me believing i'd rather be trapped in a naive state of mind; the one where the people you know are exactly as great as you'd like them to be. it is so much more exciting and pleasing living that way. once you settle in and see past the foggy clouds of false personalities, true colors really aren't that impressive anymore. of course this is not true in all cases, but i have found it to be a common characteristic in most of the relationships i form. on the contrary, other cases turn out to be the exact opposite. by this i mean that i wish certain people would give me a chance to show them exactly who i am. i think we would both be satisfied. usually, nothing happens and it only supports my idea of unfulfilled opportunities. i need to start believing in fate a little more.
things aren't too bad. no real complaints.
i got another fish!
Madam Juliet Victoria.
i see a pattern